MY HEART ONLY WANTS YOU

17

(Hari's pov)
Days passed by and we got the video deleted right away
I even met ju-kyung's mother at school she also found out about the video.
Today I'm walking to school still hoping ju-kyung would come today.
I reached school and sat down in my seat and waited for the teacher to come as seojun kept looking at me and smiling
" Why are you so happy today?" I asked Laughing
" Just seeing you makes me happy" he said making me cringe but it's nice
" At this point you'll just turn into taehoon" i said Laughing.
Suddenly I see ju-kyung and suho walking in together hand in hand
I suddenly screamed
" Ju-kyung-ah" I said as she looked at me and smiled shyly and waved at me
I waved back and smiled
Suho made her settle down and i could hear wispher here and there
" Can you all quite down" i said slamming my hands on the table
Ju-kyung looked at me and mouthed a small thank you and i just smiled at her
" Whee you always this fiesty?" Seojun asked
" Yes I was always ready to kill you in the mornings remember" i said laughing and taking out my books
After finishing 2 more periods i got up from my seat and left the classroom just to lighten my mood
I reached outside the building
I was walking when I saw ju-kyung and soo-ah walking together smiling
I smiled at them i think they must have made up.
" Soo-ah lim ju" I called out there names
They looked at me and waved at me to come to them
" You both made up?" I asked
Soo-ah smiled but it quickly fade as she looked at me
" Saviour Hari you also knew so why didn't you tell me?" She asked
I was about to say it  " i told her not to tell anyone, I'm sorry soo-ah" she said
I nodded " anyways let just forget about this and hang out later okay?" Soo-ah said as she linked her arms with both of us and we start walking
" I'm in" I said
" Me too" ju-kyung said
" Hari I'm sorry that i suspected it was you " ju-kyung suddenly said making me look at her
" Its okay lim ju Don't worry" I said smiling.
We all walked back to class and finally after few more tiring classes
School was over and seojun was waiting for me outside
I forgot to tell him that I have plans today
" Seojun-ah you go home without me i have plans with them" i said pointing to  ju-kyung and soo-ah who were tagged along beside me.
" You both are trying to steal my girlfriend now?" Seojun said making us laugh
" Go home I'll see you later " I said as i pecked his cheek
He nodded and pecked my lips quickly making me shy infront of the girls.

We all walked to the mall first trying clothes here and there and then we took booth pictures and then we had something to eat
It was fun day out with them.
After hanging out with them i was heading home.
I reached the apartment complex and saw seojun waiting for me i smiled
Suddenly my phone rang and I saw my dad was calling which was absolutely a weird thing
I picked it up
" Hello?" I said
" Hari-ah you have to come to America as soon as possible" he said
I laughed from the inside. Not even a how are you? What you have been doing?
I haven't talked to him in years and the first thing he says when he calls me is not even things but an order
" Why would I?" I asked
" Because i said so, that should be a reason enough?" He said
I see seojun walking towards me but I told him to wait where he is
He nodded and smiled
" Appa are you serious right now? why would I go to America in the middle of my school year?" I said almost hissing at him
" I have to present that someone can take over my position at the company as the next ceo , you can continue your school here?" He said
I sighed " dad give me atleast one good reason i should come to you guys when you literally abandoned me?" I said
" You have always wanted us to be there for you Hari this is your only chance to be with us" he said as he cut the call
My breath hitched and words were stuck in my mouth
My eyes are teary
Yes I have always wanted to experience what it was like sitting with them
Calling them
Talking to them
Having dinner with them
Telling them my days at school
And he is finally giving me that chance
But it will cost me a lot more then I think
It will cost me seojun's love
It will hurt him
I've never been selfish not even once
I've always wanted people to have the share first and if they want they can even take mine
Can I be selfish for once?
I love seojun but I want to know just for once if I could experience my parents love and affection
He will understand right?
I slowly looked at him as a tear fell down my cheek
He looked at me worried as he started towards me and i walked towards him
" What's wrong?" He asked as he cupped my cheeks
" I have to go to America" I said as a small whimper escaped my lips
He is speechless
He doesn't say anything for few seconds
" For how many days?" He finally asked
I looked at him and tears started Falling down my cheeks
" I don't know, my dad called and he said i need to come as soon as possible and said that i should study there" i Said in between sobs
" You want to go or they are forcing you?" He asked
This is getting worse
I can't hurt him
I stay quite
He finally let go of me and started walking away
" Seojun-ah wait" I said as i started to follow him
He just kept walking and opened the elevator and got into it
I sobbed as I started running up the stairs trying to catch him before he goes into his apartment
I reached the floor but he had already gone inside shutting the door harshly
I sat down on the floor as i cried.

Next day I walked to school knowing my dad had already told my teachers that I was going to America so my homeroom teacher told me to say my goodbye to classmates and take my stuff .
Dad gave me the flight details and i have flight later tonight.
I walked in the classroom behind ssaem
" Okay everyone " he got the class attention as my eyes fell onto seojun who didn't make eye contact with me at all
" Hari will be continuing her studies in America now so she wants to say goodbye to all of you" he said as he motioned me to speak
I hesitated at first as my chest clenched for the way seojun was looking at me
Betrayal was clear on his face
" Sorry everyone all of this was sudden but thanks for treating me like your friend. I hope you guys do great things in your future" i said as everyone cheered and soo-ah came running to me and hugged me.
I slightly smiled and hugged her back.
After collecting my things from my table i went to say goodbye to cho rang and my other friends
" Why do you have to go?" Cho rang said in an annoyed tone
" I am sorry guys but I'll make sure I'll stay in contact don't worry" i said as they all group hugged me
" Okay now when I'm gone make sure seojun is okay "
They all nodded.

As I was finally ready to Leave i saw ju-kyung coming to me
" Why would you have to go so suddenly?" She asked
" I'm sorry lim ju" i said as we both shared a hug
" Lim ju can you do me a favour?" I said
She looked at me questionably
" I want to talk to seojun but he doesn't want to do can you somehow bring him to the back of the building?" I said
She smiled and nodded

I waited for a few minutes and finally saw seojun and ju-kyung walking towards me
He looked at me and ju-kyung ran away
He also started walking away when I stopped him by grabbing his wrist
" Just please listen to me " I said
He turned around and waited for me to continue
" I know I am a jerk for doing this but I'm sorry seojun I'm really sorry" i said as held tight onto his hands
He sighed as he put his arms around my waist and hugged me
" If you are sorry then stay" he said as he snuggled into my neck
This will be a lot harder then it seemed
" Seojun please I have to go I'm sorry" i said as i tighten the hug
He slowly parted from the hug and I saw tear falling down his eyes
How can I hurt him like this
" You promised you'd stay, you said you won't go" he said almost sobbing
I wiped his tear and slowly placed a small kiss onto his lips.
He started kissing me aggressively and pushed me to the wall
" Tell me what I can do to make you stay?" He said as he parted his lips from mine only to kiss me again with same intensity
I broke the kiss and looked at him
" I have to go seojun I'm sorry" i said as i tried to move out of his grip
But he pins me back to the wall and started kissing me again
As much as I want to continue this it will make me much weak to take this decision.
I gathered all strength and pushed him away and walked away as tears fell down my cheeks.

I got home and packed my stuff and got ready to Leave
I reached the airport and waited for my flight to board when I heard my name being called
" Hari" I hear seojun's voice
I looked at him as he smiled
Don't smile like that please this is already so hard to do
" What are doing here" i asked as he looked at me
" I didn't wanted to let you go without a goodbye" he said
I slowly smiled through my tears
I hugged him and he hugged me back
" Seojun I have to give my family this last chance just this one last chance,.so can you wait for me till then ?" I asked looking at him
He looked at me with soft eyes
" I'll wait for you forever" he said as he pushed my hair back from my face
" But please don't forget about me when you see American boys" he said making me laugh
" I won't and you don't get forget about me when you work with other female idols " I said
He laughed too and kissed me slightly
" I love you seojun " I said
" I love you too" he Said.
I finally boarded my flight.

Me and seojun have decided to do long distance relationship for awhile.
I want to give my family one last chance because the little girl who waited for 10 years would
And i am happy seojun understands
I'll come back as soon as I finish college
I'll make sure I do.
Till then I'll be with seojun even though we will be Worlds apart.

Author's note:
3 more chapters to go !!!!
Hope you are liking it till now