MY HEART ONLY WANTS YOU

11

(Hari's pov)
We are sitting in the teacher's office today writing apology letter because of what happened yesterday.
Seojun is sitting in front of me staring at me intensely
I tried to avoid eye contact, I don't know why I am doing that but I just feel like I'm still embarrassed about the other day i almost kissed him
" I'm sorry because of us you have to write the letters too" ju-kyung said silently
I nodded and looked at our friends
" What are you saying this is what friends for" taehoon said smiling
" Yes plus it's seojun who should be apologizing" sujin said looking at him
Seojun hear her but doesn't take his eyes away from me
" Oh yes I'm sorry" he said
I finally looked at him
He smiled, i slightly smiled back
After finishing writing the letters we went back to our class.
I took my seat and the teacher came and we started studying
I was solving the question when suddenly the teacher said
" Seojun-ah you won't find solutions on Hari's face"
What? Why is he looking at me
I look up from my desk and to my side and soejun clears his throat as he nods and looks away for awhile.
What is happening? I thought to myself.

I was sitting and having lunch in the cafeteria when someone put a strawberry milk in front of me,i looked up to see soejun smiling at me
" Whats this?" I asked confused
He took a seat next to me and the other guys also did the same
" Strawberry milk your favourite" he said as started eating too
I smiled from the outside but inside I was screaming
He knows what I like?

After lunch we had P.E we all were playing dodgeball as usual. After playing for almost half an hour
I was drinking water standing a little far from where everyone was still playing.
Suddenly I hear someone " Hari-ah move "
I look up to see a ball coming straight my way
This will hurt i close my eyes waiting for the impact
Nothing.
I open my eyes slowly to see seojun holding the ball and looking at me with worry in his eyes
" Are you okay?" He asked
I nodded slowly
" Can't you guys play carefully " he shouted at them and threw the ball at them
" Sorry " they said apologising
" It's okay " i assure them
I looked at soejun who was already walking away back to his place
He is acting weird today.
But I like this weird him
He only looks at me
He protects me
He brings me my favourite things

Finally after school was over i walked out of the building when I saw seojun leaning against his bike with an extra helmet in his hand looking at me
I walked to him and looked at him with a questionable look
" Let's go home" he said handing me his helmet
He is offering me a ride back home ?
I definitely like this weird seojun
I smiled and took the helmet as our hands slightly touched
He shivered at that
Why? There are so many questions in my mind
I put the helmet on and sat on the bike
He started driving.
Can I put my Arms around him?
I'll do it
Worst is that he drops me off on the road.
I slowly put my arms around his waist and moved a bit closer
He tensed under my touch
Shit i shouldn't have done it
I was about to remove my arms when he took my hands and put them back on his waist
" It's okay hold on tight" he said
I nodded and shifted closer to him
I can feel the warmth in the closeness
I wish I could always be this close to him.

We reached home and I was heading into my apartment when seojun grabbed my wrist and pulled me into a hug
What is he doing?
" What are you doing soejun-ah?" I asked silently as he puts his arms around my waist and and snuggled his face into my neck
His breath is hitting my neck
My heart is beating crazy
" Doing this is nice hari-ah let's do this once in a while" he said as he pulled back and smiled
I nodded because I couldn't frame any other words
After that i went in and tried to sleep because there was definitely no sleeping after what just happened.

Next 2 days I was too busy studying for exam, seojun would stop once in awhile and get me things to eat
I told him to study but he never listens to me.
Today Is finally the exam and I have been preparing hard for it
I want to become a lawyer so I have to study hard to get into law school.
I was walking to the school with book still in my hand doing my last revisions when my eyes fell on soejun and ju-kyung
They both were smiling and talking
It's hurts bad everytime
No matter how much hard I try to get past it
I ignore and walk towards the class
As i take my seat and organise my pen before the exam start
" Hari-ah" seojun suddenly say as he bends to my level and looked at me smiling
" Whats wrong seojun-ah?" I asked
" Whats your favourite option out of all four?" He asked
That's a weird thing to ask
" Umm I think it's B" I said
" Okey B it is then" he said
What?he is going to guess everything
" Seojun-ah please read the questions first maybe you know the answers" I said trying to stop him from doing something stupid
" Don't worry if it's B for you the it's B for me" he said as he took his seat
I sighed and gave up.
After finishing the exam which was good
I did as much as i could.

Few days later we got our report cards and i scored good
I looked over to seojun who scored 50
Impressive for him
" Told you if it's B for you it's B for me" he said smiling
I laughed and nodded.

Go woon's birthday and my birthday is on the same day
We were so happy the day we found out.
Since then me and go woon always cut our cake at the same time and exchange the gifts for each other first and then looked at others gift.
I decided to go to mall and get something for her because she is into makeup these days I thought I'll get her some makeup related stuff.
After shopping i went back home and waited for tomorrow
I really like my birthday a lot
Even though sometimes I hate the fact that I was brought into this world by people who really don't care for me
I really am excited it to spend it with people who decided to care for me.
I woke up the next days and got dressed quickly
Seojun's mom called me for breakfast
She made the seaweed soup which was absolutely delicious.
After having that me and go woon cut the cake and exchanged gifts
She really liked her makeup products that I got for her
I smiled at her reaction and now it was time for me to open my present
I excitedly opened the box that was wrapped with red ribbon
On finally opening the whole box i saw the most beautiful cardigan ever
It was knitted in beautiful color of white and pink
I smiled and hugged go woon
Go woon then opened her present by seojun who also got her makeup with ju-kyung's help
And her mom gifted her a hand knitted scarf.
I was about to open seojun's present for me but he stopped me
" No no open mine in the last" he said taking the small box from my hand
I nodded and opened his mom's present for me it was a beautiful snowball
I thanked her and hugged her
" I am happy you liked it" she said
I smiled
Finally soejun handed me the small box he has been hiding from so long
I opened it and saw the most beautiful necklace in a heart shape

My eyes got teary
" Go woon-ah you said she'll like it, she hates it so much she is crying look" seojun said
I laughed a little through my tears
" I don't hate it " i said as ran my finger on the necklace
" See she likes it i told you,you almost got the other one " go woon continued
" Like it? I love it" I said as i hugged seojun catching him off-guard
Go woon and imo laughed in the back as i hugged seojun thanking him
" Oh look at you such a crybaby,I can get you lot of necklaces if it means this much to you" he said stroking my head gently
" You two should definitely date" suddenly I hear imo say
What?
I quickly part away from seojun
And now we both are awkward
" What? No shame in being with the person you really like " she continued
Me and seojun just cleared our throats and started walking away in different directions

I would love to be his girlfriend but I'll never be sure if he wants to be with me
I can only wait for him till he wants to

(Seojun's pov)
I'll wait for her till she wants to

Author's note :
Another update