NOT LIKE THE REST PT.2 x TOM KAULITZ & y/n

Pt 6

I couldn't with good heart leave you all day on a cliffhanger like that so that's why this is the second part I'm making today hehehe also sorry but this one is super long oopsies

   Bill held onto my hand as we slid past the side of their house so I didn't fall over on the rocks. Bill looked into the backyard for a second and then looked in the other direction.
   "You know what y/n I'm going to take you somewhere else." Bill says sounding focused
   I didn't respond because I felt like if I said anything I would just burst into tears. Bill walked a few feet ahead of me and I just looked down and followed along with him by the sound of his steps. I feel dumb because I didn't think I would feel the type of jealousy I'm feeling ever. I want to jump out of my own body just to get some peace from the uncomfortable feelings I'm having. I looked up and saw we were walking into some woods. I finally stopped looking down so I could be sure I wouldn't fall or loose Bill. We walked a little farther into the woods before we came to an opening where there was a little stream and some big flat rocks. Bill looked back at me and then took a seat on one of the rocks. I walked closer to the water and kneeled down beside it. I sat in silence while I threw little pebbles that were around me into the quick moving stream. I felt the sun beating on my face and heard the sound of Bill shuffling with his feet behind me. I turned around and looked at him as he looked down at me. He gestured for me to get up next to him but I shook my head no so he got off the rocks and came and sat down by me. We sat quietly next to each other and just listened to the sounds around us. Birds chirping, squirrels running around, leaves moving in the wind, and the water running before us. I picked up a small twig next to me and studied it.
   "You know when I was younger before everything changed I would come out here all the time. I used to get bullied in school so I would run out here for some peace." Bill says
   I kept holding the twig but looked to Bill as he continued speaking.
   "I used to do some crazy stuff out here too. Tom and I smoked our first cigarette in these woods and we got drunk the first time here too. I get confused though because the memories I have coming here are mostly positive but the feeling it brings me being here makes me sad." Bill says
"Why does it make you sad?" I ask him
   "I don't know maybe it's just nostalgia. I hated how I was being treated at the time but some of my best memories took place at the same time. You know what I mean?" He asks
"Yeah it's weird how the brain can bring you back to a certain time period." I tell him
   Bill nods at me and I go back to looking at the twig in my hand. We go quiet again for another few minutes before I bring up what went down before we came into the woods.
"So...who was that lady?" I ask quietly
   Just the words leaving my mouth made me feel uneasy. I wanted to know but I also didn't know if it would make me feel better having the answer to that question. I looked over at Bill and he stared at me for another moment before responding.
   "Well she is our neighbor. We have always lived next door to her. She was both mine and Toms first kiss. She was the person Tom lost his virginity too when we were young." Bill said sounding uneasy
   Just as I suspected I wish I never asked because now I really feel sick to my stomach. Those words literally made me feel physically sick. I was filled with jealousy and hurt. What made me feel the sickest was that Tom was my first and I know how I feel about him so I wondered if that's how he felt towards her. I didn't mean to do this but the twig snapped in my hand as I held onto it. I opened my hand to look at it and saw it broke into three different pieces. My eyes welled up with tears looking at the broken twig. It felt so strong when it was in one piece but now that it's broken into smaller pieces it doesn't feel stable anymore. I analyzed the broken pieces in my hand as a tears began to fall from my eyes. A tear fell into my hand that held the twigs and landed on two pieces of the broken twig. For some reason this made me angry and I threw all the pieces into the stream ahead of me. In my peripheral I saw Bill looking at me and then looking down. I sat for another moment and collected myself to ask another question.
"What was she saying to him?" I asked
   "I don't think you want to know." Bill said
"No tell me." I said
   "Well she was saying how good he looked and how experienced he must be all these years later..." Bill said
"What else." I asked
   "She was saying how cute it was that he had a little girlfriend but she wanted to spend time alone with him to catch up." Bill said quietly
   I was feeling so much anger a few seconds ago but now I'm just starting to feel numb. I'm preparing myself for the worst. I don't know how to process this. I don't know how to handle any of this.
"Well what did he say?" I asked
   "He didn't really say much he was just laughing a bit but he did say he would want to catch up." Bill said
   I got up from my seated position and wiped my eyes. I looked out around us and then looked back down at Bill. He looked scared almost but I have no reaction. I had no real facial expression it was like I wasn't even there anymore I was just on autopilot.
"Let's go." I said
   I turned towards where we came from and began walking. I heard sticks and twigs cracking beneath my feet and didn't care. What once made me stop in my tracks to hold onto became something I was now intentionally breaking.
   "Are you okay y/n?" Bill asked
   I didn't respond to him. Looking back I feel bad for ignoring him but he already knew the answer to that question before he even asked it.  I got out of the woods and bill ran quickly behind to catch up to me. I looked to where Tom and his neighbor once were and they are no longer there. I took a deep breath but unlike when I normally breathe this time it felt super heavy. Bill walked to the gate and opened it for me and we went into the backyard. Nobody was there but Bill and I. I sat down and stayed quiet. Bill went inside and grabbed me some water but I couldn't drink it. I didn't feel like drinking or eating. We just sat there not knowing what to say. I heard the back door open and saw his mom come out smiling. I tried to give as much of a smile back as I could because I just met her and didn't want to ruin the relationship I was just building with her.
"Where is Tom?" She asks
"We don't know he was talking to Lauren next door when we left." Bill says
Now I have a name to the woman. It was a name I never thought much of before but now every time I hear that name this is what will be associated with it. Their moms eyes widened and then looked disappointed. She looked at me and then back to Bill.
"Well hopefully he comes back soon. Dinner will be ready shortly." She says as she walks back inside
I don't want to be rude but the last thing I want to do it eat dinner with him. We wait outside for another 20 minutes as Bill tries to make a little bit of conversation with me but I'm not really great with making conversation at the moment. I hear the door open again and look up. As much as I didn't want to see Tom I was disappointed it wasn't him. His mom and step dad join us outside and she hands Bill and I both plates. I'm guessing their mom told their stepdad because right when they walked out the energy was different. I thanked her for the food and told her it looked delicious and she gave me a smile. I put my feelings to the side for the moment and began eating. As odd as I felt the food brought me some sense of comfort. I sat at the end of the table as Bill talked to his parents. We all finished eating and his mom got up and collected our plates.
"I'll help you with the dishes." I say
She smiled at me and I followed behind her into the house. We started cleaning the dishes and she was just asking me about my life. It was getting my mind off things a bit. I looked out the window and saw the sun was going down. I washed the dishes while she dried them. We were in the middle of a conversation when I heard the front door open. I turned around and saw Tom walking with his head down through the house. His mom said something to him which caused him to look up and over at me. His face looked serious and he kept walking and didn't say anything. That hurt more than I thought it would. Tom walked to the back door and went to sit by Bill and his stepdad. As we finished cleaning the dishes we were quiet but could hear Tom and his dad going back and forth. As I finished the last dish I started to feel nervous at the thought of having to face him. I heard the back door open and turned my head to look at it. Their stepdad came inside. He gave me a half smile and walked into one of the rooms and closed the door behind him.
"Thank you for helping me with the dishes. You're always welcome here." Their mom said
This made me happy and sad at the same time. I was happy to feel welcome but sad because of how the day has been going. I smiled at her and began to walk towards the back door. The closer I got the more my smile faded. I turned the doorknob and walked out. Both Bill and Tom looked up at me. Tom looked down and Bill looked at Tom. I sat down across from Tom. I didn't say anything and it seems like they were already sitting in silence before I came out. I just looked up at the sky. I felt Toms eyes on me so I slowly turned my head to look at him. He tried to give me a half smile but I didn't smile back I just looked right through him. His smile faded and he looked away.
"Soooo" Bill said
Neither Tom or I responded. There was so much tension in the air. I felt bad that Bill had to be in the middle of it but I wasn't going to speak up.
"Maybe we should just leave." Bill said
Right when he said this I got up right away. Bill got up after me and then I'm assuming Tom did the same. I opened the door to the house and gave their mom a hug and thanked her for everything. Bill and Tom did the same and she watched us from the front door as we left. We all got into the car and I hated sitting so close to Tom. The ride was just as quiet as it was when we were sitting at the table. Tom tried to put his hand on my thigh but I moved it off. I looked up at him with a disgusted look and his eyes looked hurt but he didn't say or do anything. It felt like the longest ride back to the hotel but finally we got there. I wasn't excited to be alone in the room with Tom but I had nowhere else to go. We got to the back of the hotel and walked in. We got up to our floor and I looked to Bill.
"Well I guess I'll see you guys tomorrow." Bill said
I gave him a half smile and then Tom opened the door to the hotel room and held it open for me. I walked right past him. I went into the bathroom right away and locked the door. I needed to compose myself before I have to stay next to him. I hear him knock on the door but I don't respond.
"Y/n please open the door and talk to me" Tom pleads
I don't say anything I just stare at the door that separates us. I hear him knocking again and again persistently. After a few minutes I take another deep breath more painfully heavy than before and I open the door. Tom looked surprised to see me but again I just looked right through him. Tom was blocking the doorway and I had to push my way past him. I sat down on the bed and he followed behind me. He sat down close to me so I moved my body away a little bit.
"Y/n I'm sorry but it's not what it seems" Tom said sympathetically but I cut him off
"Okay so go ahead and tell me what it is because to me it seems like you had me meet your parents just for you to run off with some woman you have a deep history with. So please enlighten me." I said aggressively but I was also smiling because of how ridiculous this was.
Tom looked taken back by my quick response and smile. Him and I have gotten into little arguments before but he has never gotten me so mad before that all I can do is smile. I felt crazy for it but honestly I wanted to laugh in his face because what does he mean "it's not what it seems"? I sit there waiting for him to respond but it takes him awhile to come up with something.
"We didn't have sex." He said
When he said that I actually did laugh. I probably shouldn't have but I couldn't help it. I can't believe it took him that long just to tell me he didn't fuck her. I don't care about that. When I started laughing Tom just looked at me with a straight face.
"Oh I'm sorry I don't mean to laugh that's just the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard. I'm glad you didn't have sex with her that makes me feel so much better!!" I said sarcastically and he just kept staring at me while I started talking again and my laughs stopped and my face went cold
"So if you don't mind telling me, what did you end up doing with Ms. Lauren?" I said
Toms face dropped when I said her name.
"Did you kiss her? Did you feel her up?" I asked
"Y/n" Tom said
"Oh maybe she went down on you." I said
"Y/n" Tom said in more of a pleading tone
"Oh no I know! Maybe you got to show her how experienced you are now!" I said
Right when I finished my sentence Tom broke down and started crying. I sat in silence as I watched him turn his face and cry harder than I've ever seen him cry before. Part of me loved him so much that I wanted to hug him and just hold him close but the other part of me felt like he deserved it. I didn't want to make him cry but he made me cry too. He was nowhere to be found when I was crying in the woods while his brother tried to console me. I got up off from the bed and grabbed the key card and left the room.

Oof that was a heavy one. Let's see what happens in the next part!