NOT LIKE THE REST PT.2 x TOM KAULITZ & y/n

Pt 7

Okay I can't write anymore after this part bc my fingers hurt from typing LMAO so if it leaves on a cliffhanger I'm sorry love ya anyways

I slammed the door behind me but I heard it open again seconds after I closed it. I began to pick up my pace as I felt my eyes water up again.
"Wait y/n! Wait!" Tom yelled down the hall
A tear fell down my cheek but I wiped it away. I walked towards the stairs and started walking down them as fast as I could skipping a step each time.
"Y/n slow down please!" Tom yelled which echoed through the stairwell
I wasn't sure where I was going but I just needed to get away. I heard his footsteps getting closer but I didn't turn around to look. I got to the bottom of the stairs and walked out into the lobby. I heard Tom running behind me but I didn't stop. I wiped the last of my tears for the moment. I turned around and saw Tom trying to break his way through the people in the lobby to get to me. I didn't know what to do so I just walked out the front door and slammed my way through the crowd of fans. I heard Tom yell my name one last time. I got to the other side of the street and saw as Tom got swarmed by the 100s of girls who've been waiting at the front of the hotel to see him. I couldn't stop my crying now. I saw his face over the crowd because of how tall he was compared to everyone else. His eyes looked like they were all red and his jaw was clenched. I couldn't keep looking at him or I'd have a breakdown in the middle of the street. I took one last glance at him and he was trying to get through the crowd but they wouldn't budge. I turned the corner and walked down the street until I saw an alley between two quiet buildings. I walked down the alley a bit and fell to my knees and started crying again. I was crying so hard I started to hyperventilate. This went on for a few minutes before I realized I must look crazy having a panic attack in a random alley. I couldn't cry anymore so I just sat there for a moment to compose myself. I saw it was pretty dark outside and I started to get scared being alone. As much as I didn't want to be around him right now I wished Tom was here just to protect me. I slipped out of the alley and began walking further down the street. I saw a bar and decided to walk inside. There weren't too many people in there so I was able to sit by myself. The bartender asked me what I wanted in German but he must've been able to tell I couldn't fully communicate with him.
   "Do you speak English?" He asked me and I nodded my head
   "What can I get you?" He asked
"Something strong" I said and he nodded his head and laughed a little
   I watched as he poured my drink into the glass. He came over and handed it to me.
"Thank you. Can I start a tab?" I asked pulling out my wallet to give him my card but he stopped me
   "Don't worry it's on me. You look like you need the drink." He said smiling
"I do need it. Thank you." I said smiling a little
   "Do you want to talk about it?" He asks
"Not really it's just been a rough day." I say stirring my drink
   "Alright well if you need anything just let me know." He stares at me for another moment and then tends to someone else
   I sat staring down on my drink. After awhile I took a sip and it was really strong. I decided to just chug the drink. I finished it quickly and looked around the room. There was only a couple in there with me and the bartender at the other end of the bar. I stared at my empty drink and then saw a hand come up and grab my glass. I looked up and the bartender was refilling my glass.
"Thank you." I told him and he smiled
   "Where are you from?" He asks
   I tell him where I'm from and we just talk about my life back home. He tells me about working as a bartender and then I see him giving me a confused look like he was trying to figure out something.
   "Do I know you from somewhere?" He asks
"I don't think so." I tell him
   "Are you with one of the guys from Tokio hotel?" He asks smiling now that he figured it out
"Yeah I am." I tell him
  My face gets sad thinking about Tom. I wonder what he is doing right now. I feel bad that he got caught in between all those fans. I feel bad for yelling at him too. I just wish this day never happened. I chug my drink again and I am starting to feel it now. He fills my glass up one more time. I see the couple get up and leave. I just sat to myself while I sipped on the drink. All the sudden I started to feel drunk fast. Right then I heard the door open.
"Y/n!" I hear and turn around and see Tom
Tom comes up next to me out of breathe and sits down. He looks at me for a moment.
"I've been looking all over for you I was so worried." He said
He looked at my eyes and then got a confused look on his face.
"How drunk are you?" He asks me and I just laugh
Tom pushes the drink away from me. I go to grab it but now it's out of my reach. I slump myself forward enough to grab it and I sip on it again before Tom grabs it from my hand.
"Yyyou know you reallllyy hurt my feeelings Tom." I say slurring the words together
"Let's get you out of here. We should talk about this while you're sober." Tom says
"Nnuhnuhnuhnuh no I am okkay. I want to talk noww." I say to him
"Can I pay for the drinks?" Tom asks turning to the bartender
"It's all paid for already. Get her home safe." The bartender says cleaning a glass
Tom grabs me and helps me off the barstool. I lean my body against him and he holds me up. We start walking down the street. I don't know if the air sobered me up a bit but it made me push myself off Tom.
"Y/n get back over here please." Tom says
"No don't touch me I don't want you to touch me." I say
I start stumbling back and forth on the street and I tripped and fell down. I hit my head but I heard Tom run up behind me so I knew I was at least not knocked out.
"Are you okay??" Tom asks frantically
I looked at him confused for a second and then I started laughing. His face was concerned and then it turned to a shocked expression.
"Oh my god y/n you're bleeding!" Tom says
I feel dripping from my head and I crossed my eyes to look up at my forehead which I obviously couldn't see but I felt my blood dripping from the middle of my forehead down the side of my nose and dripping down onto my pants. I touched my finger to my forehead and pulled my hand away to look at it. When I saw my blood I started to freak out and cry.
"Shhh shh it's okay baby it's okay y/n you're okay let's get you out of here." Tom says
Tom took his shirt off and pressed it against my head while he held it there with one hand and started making a phone call using his other hand to get his phone. He sat next to me on the curb while I cried. Tom called for the car and it came to get us within a few minutes. Tom helped me up into the car. He turned on the light and inspected my head.
"I think it's just a small cut it doesn't look like it needs stitches." He said while I watched him look focused on my head
I kept looking at him and suddenly he made eye contact with me. Neither of us said anything but our eyes said it all. Regardless of what happened earlier Tom is here taking care of me. We finally pulled up to the back of the hotel and Tom helped me out of the car and back up to the room. I was still stumbling a bit but I was more coherent now. Tom opened the door and let me back in. I went to go straight for the bed but Tom stopped me.
"I know you want to go to sleep right now y/n but we need to clean your head before the blood mattes your hair." Tom said
I started to whimper on the bed because I did just want to sleep it off. I opened my eyes and saw him standing over me. I sat up a bit and he helped me off the bed. I stumbled into the bathroom and Tom followed behind. Tom turned on the shower. I looked at the cut and blood in the mirror and got grossed out.
"Come on y/n let me help clean you up." Tom said
He walked over to me to help get my clothes off but I stopped him. He didn't fight me on that though. I told him to turn around while I got undressed and he did. I tried to cover myself with my hands and walked into the shower.
"Are you okay in there?" Tom asks
I was going to respond but when I turned I almost slipped on the wet floor which caused me to gasp and slam into the shower door to prevent myself from falling to the floor.
"Okay I'm coming in." Tom said
I looked out through the cloudy shower door and I could see him undressing quickly. Within a few seconds Tom stepped in and I covered myself again. Tom looked disappointed but he didn't say anything about it. Tom adjusted the temperature of the shower so I didn't get super hot water on the area of the cut. I jumped at the quick change in temperature which made Tom smile a little but then he went back to being focused.
"Okay I know you're scared it will hurt but I'm going to help you get the dry blood off." Tom said looking focused
I nodded my head and took a deep breath.
"Turn around and lean your head back." Tom said assisting me in the right direction
I tilted my head back a little but not enough to get to the correct area that needed to be cleaned. Tom went to gently guide my head to where it needed to be but when he touched me I gasped and moved a little.
"I just want to help you y/n" Tom said sounding sad
I nodded my head and took another deep breath and let him wash my hair. We stood there not saying anything just letting the water run while he focused on gently rubbing my head to get everything clean. He did this for a few moments and then I lifted my head up. I dropped my arms from covering myself and I turned around and looked at him. His eyes went to my body for a split second but quickly focused in on my face. We just stared at each other. I looked at his face and it looked so sad. I wondered what mine looked like but I'm guessing it looked similar to his expression. My eyes started tearing up when I looked at him.
"Why did you do this to me?" I asked him quietly as a hot tear felt like it was burning down my cheek
"Y/n I love you so much and I never ever wanted to hurt you like this." Tom says with a shaky voice and more tears fall from my face
"What did you do with her?" I asked sniffling
"I don't want to tell you because I don't want to see you cry anymore." He says and I begin to cry harder
"Please just tell me Tom I deserve to know." I get out in between breaths and tears
"We just kissed but I stopped it right away I'm so sorry y/n." Tom said
My tears wouldn't stop falling and I couldn't catch my breath. I covered my face and just cried while the lukewarm water fell onto me. I cried and cried and cried. I finally looked up at Tom and he had his head tilted upward looking like he was trying to hold back tears.
"Was it worth it?" I asked him and then I saw a tear fall from the side of his face.
"Of course not. I wish I never met her. I never wanted to do this to you. I don't know what happened. I hate myself for that and I always will." Tom said as another tear fell from his face
I just looked at him as he looked at me. He wiped a tear from my eyes which was counterproductive because it just caused me to cry more.
"Y/n I know I can't take it back and you didn't deserve that or any of this. I know you can't forgive me for this but I will spend the rest of my life trying to make it up to you. I love you more than anything. I'm so so sorry." Tom said
Again all I could do for awhile was cry. I didn't try to hold my tears back anymore and I just let them fall. Tom just stood there covering his face. I finally stopped crying so much and took a deep breath.
"I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings earlier with what I said." I told him quietly
Tom removed his hand from his face and looked at me with puffy eyes from his tears.
"Don't apologize to me. I deserved it." Tom said
We stood there just looking at each other. I was wondering if things would ever be the same again. Could things be like how they were?
"Can I please give you a hug?" Tom asked me
I nodded my head and he looked relieved. I lifted my arms up and placed them around his neck and he gently pulled me in by my waist and held me close. My ear was placed against his chest and I just stood there holding onto him listening to his heartbeat. I pulled away a little and he just looked at me as he still held me close. I felt the urge to kiss him and I could tell that's what he wanted too but I stopped myself. I pulled away fully and wiped my eyes.
"It's going to take a little time before things are normal again I think." I told him
"I'll wait forever if I have to." Tom says

BRO IDK WHAT GOT INTO ME BUT I HAVE WRITTEN TOO MUCH TODAY LMAO but I love writing this story so I can't wait to give you more soon!