one step forward

my love is here

VALERIE'S POV

i felt incredibly bad, my treatment had already begun, but i had to go through a lot. i could trust my feelings to friends, i didn't want to disturb them, because everyone has their own problems. i sat on the bathroom floor and restrained myself from doing what i usually do. i didn't want to hurt myself more. there was no one in the room, no one could hold me back, so i tried to do it myself.

i started to cry again. you can say, that i am a crybaby and you will be right. i always try not to cry, but, unfortunately, i just.. can't.

GAVI'S POV

after i did everything i had to, i immediately ran to her. when i quietly opened the door of the ward, so as not to wake her up, i didn't see anyone in the bed. the thought ran through my head, that she might have gone out to unwind, but as soon as i saw the light in the restroom, i was scared and worried. i was afraid for her health, so i went to the door and sat down to see if i could enter. as soon as i heard her soft cry, i quietly opened the door and went inside.

i saw her crying on the floor. i can't even imagine what it is like for her, but she didn't even notice, that i came in. i sat down next to her, trying to comfort her, and tucked her hair behind her ear. she finally saw me and looked straight into my eyes as if reading my mind.

"everything is fine, love" to be honest, i don't think, that my words helped at that moment.

"i don't know, how you feel right now, but you don't deserve this. believe me, i am always here for you, as are your relatives and friends. you can trust us, just don't hurt yourself, please.." i tried to hold my tears, but little drops remained on my t-shirt.

"thank you, pablo, i.." she didn't finish and just hugged me tighter, than usual. she pressed her face against my shoulder, leaving a wet trail of tears. i started stroking her head and kissed her hair at the end, hoping, that she would feel all my love and support.

VALERIE'S POV

one week passed really fast, so it was only few days left and i will be back home, finally.
the treatment helped as much as possible, i let go of my problems and was able to forget about everything. of course, you can't cope with everything in a week, but everything is in my hands. the important thing is that this path of recovery has begun!

by the way, barcelona and real are playing in the evening, so it is a match day! i knew, how important it is for gavi to play there. apart from playing, he tries to prove to people, that he deserves that place in the team. it is so nervous for him every time, so i need to be there for him today. maybe it will be my surprise for him?

i decided to surprise him at the game, so i asked doctor's permission to go outside. he allowed me to support my.. who is he for me? our relationships are confusing, to be really honest.

***

"xavi, how are you? ready to win?" i was sitting in his car on the passenger seat.

"of course, caro! you haven't been to the games for a long time, so we have to win at least for you" it is always so sweet to hear such words! i smiled at xavi and looked from the window, seeing camp nou outside.

i was quite shy, constantly adjusting my t-shirt with number 30 on it. i think, you already guessed whose this t-shirt was. i went to the vip area right in front of the field, where i usually sit, and waited for the players to come out onto the field and see me. it was cold enough outside, that i shook a little, but i still didn't care at all. i just wanted to give pablo back some of the love and support he gives me.