Only For Real Love

IV

Disappointment... That's what I felt the whole dinner with his friends.

Akala ko ay magkakaroon na kami ng magandang gabi matapos ng mabilis na halik na iginawad niya sa akin ngunit nagkakamali pala ako.

It's his way to boast in front of his friends. It's all an act to show them that he loves me when in fact he doesn't care for me at all.

We are still in the diner but I am all alone. They greet me but no one entertain me. No one wants me here. I feel it through the atmosphere.

Yet, Jark didn't notice it at all. He's so busy catching up with his friends and talking about business and whatever topic they have.

I felt like I am just a burden here. A woman who doesn't belong here.

"When is the wedding?" One of his friend asked while looking at him then to me.

"In three months." Maikling sagot ni Jark bago bumaling sa gawi ko para bigyan ako ng mabilis na halik sa ulo.

If I didn't know that he's just being pretentious I will surely feel butterfly in my stomach but I know better. Tipid nalang akong ngumiti at yumuko.

"Iba ka rin talaga Jark, bata pala ang nais mo?" Biro naman ng isa niya pang kaibigan dahilan upang mag tawanan sila.

The awkwardness around me intensify.

"Akala ko talaga kayo ni Frenzy ang magkakatuluyan e." May paghihinayang na saad naman ng isa..

That caught my attention. Oh, so it's not just me who thinks that there is something between them.

"Hoy ang ingay, nandito ang future wife!" Sita naman ng isang babae.

"Merlina and I are just friends." Sabat ni Jark na nagpatahimik sa lahat.

Mayroon din silang tinitignan sa gilid kaya bumaling ang tingin ko doon. Merlina was there standing and looking shock. Seeing Jark's secretary for the second time made me shiver.

I don't like her the first time I saw her and after what I learned the past week make me hate her more.

She is obvious, she likes Jark more than just a friend. She wanted more!

"Hey sis, buti naman dito ka na."

"Come sit here Merlina." Aya ng babaeng nasa tabi ni jark.

Kumunot ang noo ko ng tumayo ito at doon pinaupo si Merlina.

I feel sick with the atmosphere. As I look around I saw how regret glistened in everyone's eyes. They wish that their friends will be the end game but I am here. 

Interfering between the two.

I want to leave this place but I am shy to tell Jark about it. Baka magalit siya sa akin, malapit na akong umalis and the last thing I want is him not talking to me.

"You good?" Jark asked me and I am tempted to say I'm not feeling good.

"Y-yeah." Tipid kong sagot.

That's not what I want to say, damn it!

After that small talk Jark never look nor talk to me again.

His attention is with his friends and mostly with merlina. A strong grip around my heart tighten with the scene I am witnessing.

Uminom ako ng tubig at marahang kinalabit si Jark sa kanyang tagiliran. Napahinga ako ng maluwag ng mabilis siyang bumaling sa akin.

"What it is?" He asked attentively. I saw how his eyes shows that he realise that he forget that I am here with him.