Tangled Love

Chapter 3: Mindless thoughts

Y/n came back home after having a long day at college and threw her phone at a corner which bounced on the couch and fell on the floor. She wasn't having much motivation in her and wanted to be alone to contemplate her whole existence. She locked herself in her house and didn't reach any of her friends. As it was also the weekend, she didn't had to socialize with anyone and had a "me time "for herself.

Pov y/n

Maybe I might be someone that everyone wants to avoid. I mean Yuki is pretty, a social butterfly and smart but I'm feeling like I'm being pushed down and not being able to keep up with everyone and I feel left out all the time. Yuki is a great friend but she won't understand anything that I feel. Although she wants the whole attention on her, I didn't mind it much as it made her happy and I was glad about it.

But something in my heart aches for not being able to be open with anyone and not being to talk to anyone about it. Like what did I do wrong for people to leave me out? Also why are the professor being so whipped up for Yuki and treat me so differently than others?? Is it because I'm not in the same level in terms of physical appearance and smart like Yuki or what.

Treating me differently than others makes me feel hurt so much that I can't describe the pain. Although I thought everything is going to be okay, nothing is turning out the way I wanted it. Maybe I'm just not the god's favorite child or just the unwanted one. I won't be able to talk about this to Yuki or anyone else from my family as it's just going to be another burden for them.

Third person pov

Y/n had many thoughts lingering around her head and overthink a lot which made her cry a lot making her eyes all puffy and red. Y/n finally realized that she has been crying a lot that there aren't anymore tears dropping from her eyes as it's gotten dry so badly and hasn't eaten anything all day making her body weak. Y/n woke up from her bed and walked to the kitchen to grab a cup of water although stumbled around.

She took her phone which is lying on the floor of the house and ordered some food online and started cleaning the house to distract her mind from thinking anything about Yuki or college. Y/n motivated herself to be stronger and all she has to do is achieve well in college to get a well-paying job and make her mother proud.

As none of the friends that left her out will not even be a big problem if she is successful in life. She started to think bigger into the future and avoid all her negative thoughts. She convinced herself that everything is going to be okay and it's just a hardship that she has to face to become successful and strong in life.