*toxic love*

My heart wanted him

I opened my eyes, I looked to see if Tom was near me but he wasn't. I tried getting up bu I was tied up again?! I was so confused. "Why the hell am I tied ul?!" I thought to myself.

The door opened. It was Tom, he had no expression on his face. He looked empty on the inside, he had blood all over him and a used knife aswell. I was looking shocked at him, " Tom what the fuck did you do?! Why am I tied up, what happened?", I got no answer, he was just staring across the room and didn't say a word, until he said some words that made me die inside.

"I killed Ashley"

I looked at him with my eyes wide open.
"What?!" i said as the tears started pouring down my cheek. I couldn't believe it. I balled my eyes out, I was completely broken. Why would he do this?! Why?

"Why would you do something like that?! You're a fucking monster! No no" i cried. " Ashley, my ashley" I was full of anger and sadness.
Tom started crying aswell
" I'm sorry Lisa! i'm so fucking dumb! I'm so sorry! I didn't know what to do!" he said coming close to me to hug me.
" No no no don't you fucking touch me you monster!!" i said as we both were crying our eyes out.
" I had to do something ! You can't love me, I'm a monster, I needed to do something to make you hate me Lisa!" he said crying and hitting everything around the room.
" Yes I do love you and you're a fucking monster, but I can't stop loving you! I would if I could, I hate you Tom i hate you!" i screamed crying.
" I'm letting you go. Because I love you to and I don't deserve you! I heart like yours should never love a heart like mine." he said crying.

I stood there not saying anything. He untied me and gave me some chlothes.
" Tom, I can't leave you!" i said .
"You have to" he said looking down and closing the door leaving me on my own.

He had ruined my life officialy but I wanted him so bad. My heart wanted him.
I walked not knowing where I was. I had the keys to my and Ashley's apartment in my purse from the night I met Tom.
Tom had also put money in my purse. I took a cab to my home. I was so tired and didn't want to do anything anymore.
Even though Tom had let me free I didn't feel like it, I still felt trapped.

I got in my apartment and looked around. It was so depressing. It was dark and the boxes were still unpacked. I jumped on my bed and cried for a month, locked in my room.

My bestfriend was dead and I was inlove with a Monster