I don't feel comfortable in my own skin I look at the girls he follows and think why didn't he pick them. I don't feel pretty not like they are. I wear too much makeup my parents say and when they ask why I have yo make up excuses so they don't know the struggle of how I wanna hurt myself because I don't meet the standards of pretty girls and why should I care I'm so young i need to live my friends say I can't live when I'm constantly looking at the girl in the mirror wanting to rip her head off she's so ugly and so many things could change and she would still be the same girl she wears so many scars . She just did her makeup and is crying it off but she will put more on when she's done she wants no one to see how vulnerable she is. She thinks why do I hate myself she wishes she could love herself but she loves the boy the boy she loves him so much he saved her she was drowning from the last but now she thinks he's seeing the real her how she's sees herself how she's not good enough not as pretty does he see it to is he realizing she's not good enough for him because she never will be he deserves the world and she can't give it to him because she doesn't love herself she loves the boy more than the girl in the mirror.
