I hate the way you make me so in love with you the way you smile laugh talk anything I hate it when you make me smile when I'm sad I hate being in love with you you're so good for me and bad at the same time I love you so much I hate you I hate everything you do because I know deep down I can never have you you won't let me you won't let me show you how different I can be from other people I'm willing to make it work but you won't let me I hate you for it I wanna show you I'm not the same that I can be different but you simply won't let me get through with it I hate how much you're hurting me and not realizing it I wish I could tell you how much it hurts but a you would have to say is sorry I don't think it's gonna work out. Maybe it won't but at least I would be able to move on have closure and not think about what could have been iys always gonna be you I carved your name into me and filled it with black ink dammit so ever damn time I look down I can think about how in love with you I was whe I'm old I can tell my kids about you they can ask mom who's that and point to my left ankle and I can smile and say the boy who I couldn't have the boy I loved but never loved me back and tell them about how good a person you were and I don't care how bad of a person you think you are you're the best thing that had happened to me and I could tell them about the late night conversations we had because we could fall asleep I loved you so much I still doI've never loved someone so much so hard why do you have to hurt so bad cut so deep it hurts worse when I know you don't wanna give me a chance you're ignoring me right now and that hurts worse I wanna know how your doing i wanna know if it's good or bad I don't care because I fucking love you why do you have to be so perfect it makes me hate you I loved you so much its turning into hate I hate you so much God dammit I fucking hate you I hate you for making me think thay we could be something more for being so perfect for fucking ignoring me for hurting me every friend I have could turn me down but this would still hurt worse because I loved you I hope someday someone does this to you so you can feel how hurt I am and will be I hope it hurts I want you to feel as hurt ad I am how you make me feel as I will never be enough for you I hope you cry yourself to sleep like I do thinking about her and how she hurt you I hope you write pages about her and look back and they be stained with tears like I do when I look back at writings about you I love you I love the way you smile laugh and turn the phone away when I called you cute on ft but I will never forget how you hurt me I will never forgive you because no one should feel this hurt from a person that they loved I hate you for it I love you I always will you're always part of me everytime I look down at my left ankle and see the name of the boy who would give me a chance.
