ANGER
"take me back to the night we met." lord huron
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i went to your funeral today. something i never thought i would have to do.
hyunjin. if there was anything i could do right now, i would want to go back to the night we met. when you hadn't touched me yet. when i wasn't in love by the heat your hands radiated. or the way you smelt.
when i wasn't in love with you.
because hyunjin! you promised to never leave me! you promised it! WHY WOULD YOU LIE!
you would always promise to be careful, to be safe. you would always tell me that you would follow your gut. that you would keep yourself out of harms way!
so why am i receiving this call?! why would someone call me and tell me that you died! you promised to be safe. you promised.
i remember the first night we met. i was mad at you, just as i am today. i was mad because you wouldn't leave me alone. you kept on sending your friends to give me drinks you bought. well, that was the first time we talked.
i remember that you would always show up at the observatory at the same time as me. you would always be staring at me. you would always leave notes behind, you just never left me alone. and that annoyed me, because, well, i never had someone be so obsessed with me.
you would buy me drinks anytime we caught each-other at the bar. you would always be bothering me about getting my number. or if you could take me on a date. there was that one time you asked if you could paint me.
you were so persistent about getting to know me. and when we first dated, i remember, you couldn't keep your hands off of me. you would hug me whenever you got the chance, or hold my hands.
i wanted to be left alone, when we first met. and now, all i want is for you to come home.
p.s. i hope you know that the moment you step foot into my room, i will slap you so hard! for doing this to me.
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