love letters [on hold]

ever since

💌 — beomgyu focus

he felt guilty, he got back to his dorm in tears, pulling at his hair and stumbling to his bed; hair messy and red, stained eyes and multiple bruised from bumping into thinks like a drunk madman and hitting himself for being so stupid.

what he did earlier was a dick move, and he regrets it, alot.

as like huening kai, tears came out like a waterfall and he curled up into a ball on the messy sheets under him.

💌

(earlier)

"the letter where i tell him im giving up!" beomgyu slapped a hand on his mouth, tears building up in his eyes as he slowly turns around to soobin who froze on his spot a few steps behind.

"w-what?" soobin said softly.

tears escaped from beomgyus eyes as he fell weak, leaning onto the railing of the bed as he cried out.

"i- i didnt want to–" he started but was cut off.

"then why did you?!" soobins vooice was loud and echoed throughout the room. he stood up straight and struck at his hair in frustration. "beomgyu why?!–"

"it's hopeless" he whispered, prompting soobin to silence himself. "what do you mean?" he asked.

"ive been crushing on him since first year high school and now we're going to college! he's shown no feelings for me. he appreciates the letters and just that" beomgyu explained, his voice was weak.

"so you're gonna give up on him? just like that?"

"im keeping him from finding someone he'll love truly. it's better to end it now than lead him on–"

"you're already doing that!" soobin yelled,  cutting him off, "you've been doing that ever since" he continued.

beomgyu looked down hiding his evident tears. "i-" he sniffled, "i'm sorry" and without another word, he ran out the room, leaving behind his bag and other valuables in the hands of another