childhood crush

PART ONE - sadly leaving you

"madi!!" my mother yells from across our house. i rush downs stairs in a hurry. "yeah mom?" "me and your father have some news" they say without making eye contact with me. "were leaving germany and moving to america, but dont freak out its just they are offering me and dad better jobs and we have to accept them hunny" my mom says rubbing my arm. this changes everything! we cant be moving? is she serious! "no! what about tom and bill? and gustav and georg?!" mom knew i was upset to leave my friends especially the boys that im in a band with.

"i know hunny! you can say your goodbyes today but you have to get packing were leaving at 3am thats our flight." my mom says looking deep into my eyes. "ugh! this is so unfair!" i yell as i stomp up to my room. i cant help but sob into my pillows. i love germany i cant just leave it! mom knew leaving was gonna be hard on me but i have to get over it.

i finally finished packing. i check the time. 9:08pm shit! i have just enough time to say goodbye. i quickly run into my mom and dads room. seeing the empty room makes tears form into my eyes. "im going to say my goodbyes" i say as im already sprinting out the door. i show up to the kaulitz house. their mom answers the door. "hi ms. kaulitz!" i say in a rush. "oh hey sweetie! looking for the boys, there upstairs with georg and gustav" she says in a sweet german accent .

everyone is learning english now that more people are moving to and from here. i quickly rush into there home. and knock on their door repeatedly. bill opens the door fast. "what?!" he says as if his mom or dad was at the door. "oh hey madi-" i cut off bill with the biggest hug. "omg madi whats the matter?" georg says in a concerning way. "my mom and dad are forcing me to move to america, tonight!" i say tears start rolling down my face.

"what!" all the boys exclaim. "but what about the band?" gustav yells as he throws his hands in the air. "fuck the band, what about madi leaving?!" tom yells back at gustav. bill pulls me into another big hug. "were leaving in a few were gonna be at the airport for awhile." all the other boys get up and hug me. "im sorry i have to go now" i say wiping my nose on my sleeve. tom hugs me one last time. "please dont go" tom whispers in my ear. "im sorry i have too" i say.

i give everyone one finally hug as i leave and shut the door behind me. as soon as i get home my mom and dad are already rushing me out the house. goddamn give me a second to get my stuff!

we just got onto the airplane. its 3 in the morning and im way to tired to be here. they gave me window seat because how upset i am. i rest my arm on the rest and just look out the window. im going to miss everyone. ive had a crush on tom, ever since we became friends. will everything be different now? even the band what are they gonna do? im a guitarist and singer?! i decide to not overthink so much. maybe this could be good for me. ill make new friends at a new school. a fresh new start, havent i always wanted that? trying not to overthink my tiredness takes control of me and i fall asleep.

618 words!! its a good start 🫶🏻