childhood crush

PART FOURTEEN - i hate you.

(a/n - so in the last part i said i was back but then i stopped writing for awhile but im gonna try and write again 👍)

"wait i can explain!" tom said panicking. "explain what? that you cheated on my fucking sister?!" liam yelled. liam was always protective of me, and i respected that. "no man, you dont understand!" tom said as sweat rolled down his face. "i think i understand! why would you hurt her? you knew she loved you" liam said getting closer to tom. "you always find a way to mess up! but cheating? way too far!" liam yelled at tom with his strong voice. "no! you dont! she threatened madi, and my brother! thats my love and my family! what did you expect from me!" tom yelled at liam. hearing this made madi stop crying. madi stoppes hugging georg and looked at tom. my eyes were all puffy and red. from the lies that have been told. "is that true? were you really protecting us?" i asked tom. he could tell i was beyond hurt. "yes madi, you out of all people should know that. i love you and only you." tom said. i couldnt tell if he was saying the truth or was just a good goddamn manipulator.

"since i came back? and when we used to date the first time around?" i asked tom. my voice hurting and breaking. "madi i wasnt cheating i swear i was just protecting you and bill." tom said moving closer to me. it was hard to believe but i loved tom more than myself. "what about when you were sick? and i still stayed by your side. i took care of you and everything. our little cute moments. us playing music together, any of it. did it matter?" i said quietly as if the words hurt me. "did you do the same with her?" i asked him. he looked shocked from what i was saying. "madi i had too." tom said looking at my red eyes. it almost looked like i was on something from how red my eyes were. that just proves how hurt i am. "you didnt have too, you could of protected us in a different way, you could of called the police, or maybe even tell someone. but you didnt." i told him. please, he could of done anything. tom stuttered his next words. but i didnt listen. there were only 3 words running through my head. "i hate you." i said as i turned around and walked out of the house. leaving everyone back inside the house. the house were most my memories were filled. my second home. i ran down to the only place i truly ever loved. it was the lake. i loved it. the beautiful sunset of loved ones rising down. and how beautiful it makes the sky look. i made it too the dock and sat at the end as i dipped my feet into the water.

i decided to go back home, i didnt want to stay out in the lake for too long. on my way back home it felt weird. it felt as i no longer felt safe or okay. i always had tom by my side or with me but now i dont. i guess we have broken up before so i shouldnt be upset. but this time we wernt even dating. its just the fact that he was cheating on me, it dosent seem real. am i aloud to be upset or should i be forgiving tom?

i started to question myself more and think about it more. when i got home only liam was there. im guessing he came back home. i opened the door, liam was sitting on the couch watching tv. "where mom and dad?" i asked him as i made my way to the kitchen. "business trip, they didnt want to take us this time" he said as he focused on the tv. "i wish they did that the last two times, then maybe my life wouldnt be that fucked up" i told him as i grabbed a bowl and poured cereal and milk into it. "make me a bowl? please?" ugh. i grabbed another bowl and made him some.

"your coming over here for it, im not bringing it to you" i said, i sat down and placed his bowl next to me as i ate. i heard him groan as he got up. he walked over and sat next to me. "tom is annoying" he said trying to make conversation. i just shrugged it off. i never felt as he was annoying at all times but yeah some moments he was. "wait so you guys liked eachother but then you left at 13 to go with mom and dad to america? then came back at 16 the age you are now and you guys dated? then you guys broke up because you had to leave to visit me in the hospital in america and that was 3 months right?" he asked trying to understand the situation. "yeah" i said quietly as i took a bite of my cereal. i know he was trying to understand but it kinda hurt me to think about.

"then you came back with me and i think you guys were like friends with benefits or something then you found out he was cheating/seeing someone else ever since you guys were 13?" he asked again. "yeah i think so" its all so hard to remember. thinking about it made me more on the urge of crying. "i think i need to separate myself from them." i told liam. "but what about bill? he didnt do anything" liam said defensive.

"yeah true, bill, georg, gustav and mia all didnt do anything. so maybe ill just ignore tom?" i asked liam. "yeah that sounds better" he said as he took a bite of his food.