Caged Freedom

10. SUCKER AGAIN!

Long ago it was age
The immaturity at mind and heart,
Where I lived and relived, as though an act on stage-
The dilemma, the events, the pain of love as such
Everything in it just tore me apart.

I said I'd change and grow from that-
I promised myself really, never flaked again;
Never fooled again.
I don't know how serious I was,
But if I was in school then this below a fail grade.

Could be optimism on my part
Or plain stupidity actually,
But this recurring habit, bizarre
Not so much, but this heart can't take it really.

I'm a humble guy you know,
I wonder am I just loco?
Or its like this only because you know
I'm a big sucker for you?

I admit, I was lonely and it was sad
But never was I devastated:
Or drowned, so frustrated.
I was frowning but never felt this bad
One might say my life is orchestrated.

No matter the burdens that came,
No matter how far gone love got me
I am always smitten and end up insane.
I love too much and you so know me,
No matter how brave I can say I am
For you I'll always be a sucker again.

So its not optimism I guess?
Its just a heart being stupid all over again-
Falling in love making its own mess
This is me being stupid, that plain.

I can cry and weep
I can drown and grate
But no matter the wound that I'm entrenched,
However far the pain can go, deep
I am going to stay, your sucker.