gaze of the ray

chapter 2

"The beginning"

Nagmumuni-muni ako sa aking kwarto,ng tawagin ako ng aking ina.

" Andy,halika't kakain na" it's dinner time,at hula ko wala na naman si papa, actually expected ko na yun,di na ako magugulat na hindi nanaman namin siya makakasabay,he always goes to the store or another house where's his friends are,and it makes me sad.

I shake my head to stop thinking baka mauwi nanaman sa pag emote,ayoko pa naman yung ganon,I stared at my reflection in the mirror before i went on the dining area.

After eating dinner,i washed the dishes,and i felt empty again, I bring out a heavy sigh and shake my head.after that I walked in my room to do my homeworks.

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Nagising ako sa tunog ng alarm sa cellphone ko,I look at the time and I continues to sleep but when it rang again,I immediately get up, as to prepare myself for coming in school.

I wore our school uniform,a white blouse and maroon necktie,with belt and a maroon skirt above the knees,and long sacks to cover up my legs, looks luxurious and perfect.after that put some make up on.and while looking at the mirror i realized how pretty i am,gosh.

Lumabas na ako para mag abang ng masasakyan,yeah right.

Wala kaming sariling sasakyan,nag aabang-abang lang ako ng masasakyan ko papuntang school and it's kinda fun.yea right it is.

Habang nag hihintay ako  ng masasakyan ko, suddenly a  luxurious car abruptly stopped,heck  bakit sa tapat ko pa?sa tapat kong saan ako naka puwesto, it made me nervous and scared at the same time,halla paano na ang aking pangarap pag nagkataon,ang kepay ko paano na?

Before i step back,the window of the car suddenly opened.laglag ang aking panga ng makita ko ang lalaking nasa loob, my heart started to race and pounds loudly.

What is this?do i have a disease?why my heart suddenly race rapidly?what is this?dahil ba gwapo yan? what's that fucking face? Adonis ang kutis and his face looks like a foreigner.

"Hmm...am sorry miss,did I startled you?"he looks at me with gentleness and I accidentally met his eyes, his eyes like an ash gray and then his gazed seems changed, bigla na lang ako nahiya kaya't umiwas agad ako ng tingin.

"Oohmm,w-what can I help you po?" I said politely and scolding myself for stuttering and also being this way, I'm not like this, I never been like this, this is a fucking rare.

"Ahm.."he cleared his throat before he answers me."I just want to know if there is any renting house here in your brgy?"he said that without looking at me.

"Sorry po,but I don't know any renting house here or nearby in our brgy,you can ask another person, I can't help you with that matter." Ani ko ng maayos at ngumiti,ng bigla kong makalimutan ang oras,napatampal na lang ako sa noo ng makita ang oras, malalate na ako." Sabi ko sakto naman na may tricycle na papunta sa direksyon ko,kaya pinara ko na ito agad.

I shouted and he just passed by buweset yun ah,eksena naman oh.

Naiinis na ako ah!hirap mag abang dito samin parang gago mga driver,sarap tadyakan papuntang mars!

"Oh andy, dyan ka parin?gusto mo sumabay sa akin?" boses palang alam ko na agad kong sino

"Sigee lang, una kana kaya ko na ito!"ani ko ng bumaba siya galing sa moto niya.

"Come on,andy, sabay kana para dika na mahirapan." Sabi niya ng matigas na tono at hinuli ang kamay ko, he tried to pull me and force me to get a ride,pero hindi ako nagpatangay, I didn't let him do that!

Agad akong na alarma sa ikinilos niya,

"Ano ba lucas!,bitawan mo nga ang kamay ko."nag titimpi at matigas kong wika sa kanya.

"Andy,please...j-just this time?can I-I?just once?" His voice was gentle and it made my eyebrows furrowed,I won't let him exploit my head again,once was enough.

I didn't speak instead I avoided him and walked passed through him,I scold myself to not look at  him.

Ngunit ilang hakbang palang ang aking naaapakan, sinundan niya na agad ako,and I just want him to stop hitting me and chasing me like he hasn't done a thing that made me being like this.

I went on the place that i was standing on a minute ago,and I still seeing the luxurious car that the man was riding in,and a silly idea pop in my head.

"Guess,it's not vile"

I walked nearby the car,and knock the front of the window,geez why am sweating like a mad.

"Why do you keep knocking that car,andy?"he stop me from knocking and pull my right hand to face him.

I wince "really,lucas?mind your own business.what I do,it doesn't concern you,get away!"I push him and he firmly holds me.

"Yes,it does concern me, I'm courting yo-"I cut his words

"No,you COURTED me!not anymore,you courted,you made a thing that made you became like this, it's just your ego lucas,I hurt your ego and you keep taunting me like I am bound to be yours,stop this madness, we're still teenagers,you might find a perfect fit for you and I am not that woman,who you was looking for"I seriously confronted him

"But,I do like you...I really do,andy."his face, these kind of emotions that I could read

"You're just infatuated, and that kind of feelings are just platonic nothing serious"

"But I believe it's t-true."

"Lucas!" I said with firm toned "walang mapupuntahan tong usapan na ito,I thought you would agree to my suggestions,it turned out to be like this instead" I turn my sight and the car was open,and I immediately got inside to escape from lucas.

i accidentally met his gaze "Sorry,Ahm...can I stay here for a while,just this time,please."

His eyes brows up while looking at me"no problem!that was quite a scene ,huh, I don't intend to eavesdrop but I did, at dahil sa lalaking yun na late kana sa klase mo!"

"Huh?Oo-wait you know-I mean alam mo mag tagalog?"i felt my eyes got bigger with disbelief.

"Is that shocking to you?well you're not the only person who reacted that way" he bites his lower lip to stop grinning," you still going in class like this hour?"he inquired

I felt awkward due to his swift movements just by grinning like that and that lip bite,how ridiculous I was to avoid his precious gaze, perhaps, shaking my thoughts and look away.

"I think I would make it half day,mamayang hapon na lang ako papasok,"

"That kid he won't leave i bet,dahil hindi ka pa nakakaalis"his manly voice was indulging me and I get what he's trying to determine.

"sorry for the interruption"  I was ashamed that I bother a man who was a novice in this barrio.

"No problem,lady kid."