CONTROLLING THE SHADOWS (drarry oneshots)

😫🎧The night we met🎧😫

OK SO THIS HAS SERIOUS ISSUES IN THIS INCLUDING MENTAL SICKNESSES, SELF HARM, FAMILY ISSUES, ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, ACTUAL SUICIDE, AND PHYSICAL HEALTH RISKS.   SONG DOESNT START UNTIL YOU SEE THIS EMOJI: 🎧

Draco pov:
"So we got a call from the doctors and Draco honey..... you have a tumor on the hinge of your jaw" I froze... "what does that mean?" I hid my emotions so well it sounded like I didn't care. "We'll it's benign, so non cancerous. But... you need surgery again." Last April I had my appendix taken out, I was in so much pain for the weeks leading up to it.

"Ok...."
"Ok? Do you have any questions?"
"No..."
"Draco it's ok to be upset and scared or whatever else you feel."
"I'm fine..."

And with that I went up to my room. Not another sound came out of my mouth that night. I had no need to tell anyone how I felt. Not even my boyfriend knew. Of course I'd tell him about the tumor, but I don't even think I like him, and he definitely isn't gay. I've caught him cheating on me with way to many girls for him to be gay.

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"YOU DONT LOVE ME OK?!?? I CAN SEE THE WAY YOU FUCKING LOOK AT HER!! THE- the way she looks at you." I stopped my tears from falling with a deep breath.

"I'm sorry, we- I can't go on like this. I love you, goodbye mike." And with that I left him in the corridor, alone.

I didn't go back to the dorms that night. At least not my dorms. I bumped into potter in the hallway. I guess that's when our 'friendship' started.
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Shit shit shit shit. Why the hell did it have to be now. I woke up with Marlee's dead body laying on my chest. Tears filled my eyes. "I can't deal with this right now." I screamed in pain.
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The blood dripped from my arms. I opened the bottle and downed 15 of the pills. That's 150mg of Prozac. What is supposed look to help me is now going to end my suffering for good. The thought of mine and potters argument came back as I drank the water on my bedside table.
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"DRAY WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!" He grabbed my arm and revealed the scars. "H-harry, I-I I can't," he pulled me into a tight hug as tears ran down my face. "Dray please don't kill yourself i- I love you...."
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"I love you.... Three words that no longer have a meaning. I'm numb, the pain I used to feel. Gone. Does he care, does anyone really care. Of course they don't. And with that, I just wanted to say I loved too much it got me hurt. Xoxo Draco malfoy"

I stepped off the ledge and fell into the feeling of freedom. Freedom of the pain, the people, the feelings, and just life itself.
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Harry pov:

Ooooooooo oooooooo oooooo oooooooo ooo

Oooooo oooooo ooooooooo oooooooo ooooo

I am not the only traveler who has not repaid his debt, I've been searching for a trail to follow again...

I think back to all of the years we fought... heh but then something changed

Take me back to the night we met

I found him there with the cuts on his arms. What did he do to deserve this pain.

And then I can tell myself...What the hell I'm supposed to do

I thought if I showed him how much I loved him he wouldn't want to hurt himself but I guess I was wrong...

And then I can tell myself, Not to ride along with you

I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you

His mother asked me to say a few words at his funeral... I don't think I can. I fucking loved him and he had to go and just take himself away from me. Selfish prick!

Take me back to the night we met

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do, Haunted by the ghost of you!!"

Every night I have the same dream. It's him smiling and the next moment he's cutting and laughing about it.

Oh, take me back to the night we met

When the night was full of terrors

Just the same dream on loop like a playlist stuck in my mind!!

And your eyes were filled with tears

I stood at the top of the isle, note cards in hand, with all the bs written on it....

When you had not touched me yet
Oh, take me back to the night we met

I threw them out..... "me and dray had a uhm complicated relationship, we fought for the majority of our time together, we were enemies, until we weren't. I loved him, I won't say he was perfect b-" I sniffed, I started to feel myself choke on my words. Why did you have to leave me dray?

"B-but, he was the only one I can ever imagine being with, he wasn't perfect to himself but he was perfect to me...."

"I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you"

"I wish he could've seen what I saw in him..."

"Take me back to the night we met"

Tears rolled down my face as memories of him, of us flooded in my mind...

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you"

All of those lasts, last kiss, last I love you, last hug, last argument, last everything..... why could life be so cruel. What did I do to deserve this???

"Take me back to the night we met"