Switched ✔

t w e n t y t h r e e

To say that things were normal would be a huge-ass lie.

Sure, Mew and I's relationship are fine and during lunch, it wasn't that awkward anymore, but the thing is... it just makes things even more complicated.

Bright kept acting like it was before the dare all over again which only means cute dates, random kisses, and make out at the locker before the bell. And as much as I wanna say I hate it, I don't. I'm not exactly overjoyed but I don't hate it too. I just... didn't feel anything. And it made me feel so guilty; so, so guilty. Not just to Bright, but to Mew as well.

There's no doubt that I love Mew with everything in me, but doing things in the "dark" isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Moreover for someone like me that loves to show affection almost 24/7.

The bad thing is, Mew tried his best to show as minimum as possible affection when it comes to Win. But I, on the other side, barely did anything. And it crushed me to see the pained expression in his eyes every time Bright and I were doing something couplely.

I would shoot him my apologetic smile but he'll just look another way like he didn't see anything. And every time we went on our secret date(s), I would try my best to explain it but he just shrugged it off, again and again.

I was so fucking confused about what to do until one night I came to my breaking point and asked Mae about it.

Let's just say all hell broke loose as soon as she heard it.

She flips shit. Badly.

She told me to gather my shit together before I talk to her again.

I got grounded after that.

It was now Wednesday, two weeks and three days after my agreement with Mew and also me going back with Bright. I finally came to the conclusion that my relationship with Mew is so, so wrong in more aspects than one so I'll try my best to avoid him and fix my shits with Bright.

I know it's not the greatest thing to do and extremely childish of me but I'm stuck, okay? So bear with me.

I managed to prolong my time at home so I arrived just right 3 minutes before the bell which mean I have to run to my locker and then to my first class, but in other words: no bumping with Mew.

Between classes, I somehow manage to not bump into him but oh, does he know? Obviously.

Mew knew me like the back of his hand so it was so fucking obvious that he noticed it. I ignored all of his messages along with his calls that I set to go straight to voicemail moreover me being the dummy that I am makes it extremely obvious when I suddenly take turns when we saw each other in the hall. Stupid right? I know.

Lunch came around and I texted Bright to meet me at our favourite café down the road before I scurried over to my car and drove it straight to the said café. He arrived a few minutes after I did and thankfully he didn't question my abrupt decision. We talked, we ate, we joked around, and we made out a bit. It was great but as much as I enjoy the moment, I can't stop feeling guilty.

No, Gulf, you're doing the right thing.

Yeah, but is it really?
The image of those big brown eyes, coated in pain and wonder wrenched my heart and I want to do nothing but pull him into a big, big hug while peppering him in sweet kisses.

But you can't.

But I can't. Yeah, I know that.
I subconsciously sighed out loud, gaining attention from Bright.

"You okay?"

"Me? Yeah, of course, just a tad bit tired I guess,"

"Do you wanna skip and just rest then? Or..."

"No, I'm okay. Let's just go back to the school. It's almost the fourth bell."

"You're right. C'mon!" Bright pulled out his wallet and paid for the food before I even got the chance to open my mouth. If I was with Mew, this won't happen. We'll have a discussion over this instead of him just paying for me. Fuck, I shouldn't have thought about him.

"I'll see you at school," I mumbled to Bright before slipping into my car. He looked at me a bit confused but I brushed it off carelessly.

I drove my car back to the school and much to my luck; Mew was waiting by the hall's entrance. I was hoping he wouldn't confront me for at least three days or something but seems like I was just extremely lucky. You heard my sarcasm? Good.

I parked my car at my usual place, taking my sweet time before heading out of the vehicle.

He raised his eyebrow at me as soon as he sees me, but I acted like I was busy with my phone (which still didn't work anyway). He grabbed my wrist and basically dragged me to the backside of the school before pinning me to the wall so I won't run away.

If it was under different circumstances, I would have kissed him until we couldn't breathe. But sadly, it's not the time.

"Why were you avoiding me?"

"Uh? No, I wasn't. Why would you think so?" I said, looking at everywhere but his eyes.

"I know you're lying,"

"No, I wasn't Mew. Can I please go now?"

"No. Bii, can you look at me, please?" I stubbornly held my ground, still avoiding his icy brown eyes. He growled lowly sending shivers down my spine. Fuck, Gulf, get your shit together!

"Gulf," Damn, dude, the dominance that dripped from his voice...

"I'm not gonna repeat myself, princess,"

"W-what?"

"Why are you avoiding me?"

"I wasn't avoiding you, Mew. Why can't you believe me?"

"Because I know you're lying, Gulf. So, why?"

"I..."

Should I tell him?
Will he hate me?
Fuck, what did I get myself into?

"I- I... I can't."

"You can't what?"

"... Do this anymore."

"Bii, tell me that it wasn't what I think it was,"

"Mew, I- I love you, I swear I do, but it's not fair on you if I still have a thing for Bright. It's not fair on both of you and I can't keep hurting the three of you, moreover Win. He's my best friend, Mew. He likes you with everything in him and even probably loves you too and I just... I can't be in between that."

"..."

He stayed silent and I sighed heavily before reluctantly looking up into his brown eyes.
Pain. Disappointment. Pain. Frustration. And more pain.

Fuck!

"Are you breaking up with me, Gulf?"

"I love you, Mew, I really do but I think this is for the best." He forced a smile on his face, nodding his head a tiny bit before a single tear rolled down his cheek.

"Oh God, Mewwie please, we both know that I don't want this, but I got no other choice,"

"You said you don't wanna hurt us, but you're hurting me,"

"Mew, please... I didn't mean to, you know I would never hurt you intentionally,"

"Win, ha, Win, he doesn't like me, Gulf. Not anymore. We made it clear last night. We had a talk and I came clean to him about my feeling and so did he. We're nothing now, but y-you..."

"Oh God, Mew... I- I-"

"It's okay, I respect your decision." He slowly pulled his body from me. I helplessly reached out for him but he shook his head and took a few steps back.

"Mew..."

"Bye, Gulf. I'll see you around,"