In love with my neighbor ⇝ENGLISH VERSION⇜

Chapter 01

Today, Saturday, May 22, 2021;

I begin to write my story that took place 5 years ago and which I have now decided to put down on paper.

At that time I lived in an urbanization with swimming pool and private park. It was a fairly large town, used to the town where I lived all my childhood, because, at the age of 10 I moved to Murcia for my parents' job.

I changed city, school and friends. I also left behind a large part of my small family. But I saw it as an opportunity to start over, because in my hometown I was suffering bullying. Even so, no one around me noticed, not even my parents or the people who provoked it. I learned to suffer it all quietly. It is also true that at that time I did not realize what they were doing to me, I saw it as completely normal. It was later when I realized that, after growing up like that, I ended up hiding in a bubble with my solitary world where I didn't know how to relate to other people.

On the other hand, my adolescence in Murcia was just as difficult. When I arrived new, I had a terrible fear of being treated the same way again. At first everything was going great, I was welcomed in my new class with love and respect, however, all that ended the day I had to change town and school. History repeated itself again and in that last year of primary school I coped as best I could between insults, laughter, defamations about me and threats to make public my sexual orientation, because I do not remember how, they discovered my attraction to people of the same sex.

Once that stage of elementary school was over, I saw a new opportunity to start again. This time there was no moving, however, I did change schools, since I was going to start secondary education.

The terror of knowing what my new classmates would be like kept me awake practically all summer vacation. I had every chance that history would repeat itself again, as they always boiled down to the same thing <<my weight>>. It was always teasing and laughter. My extra pounds have never left me and back then I feared for repeating history again.

Surprisingly, in my new school I managed to make 2 friends and 3 friends. Everything went quite well. In that course I fell in love with one of my friends, but it remained just that, an unrequited feeling as usual.

As time went by, that feeling faded and I became attracted to another girl in my class.

That girl was very problematic, she was a repeater and always ended up arguing with the teachers. I don't know at what point I decided it was a good idea to meet her, but it ended up being the opposite. After meeting her, I knew that she was a good person and that she didn't like to have that attitude with the teachers, however, I didn't know how to get out of that toxic loop that she unconsciously created.

Let's remember that I started liking her before I even met her and because of my impulses and feelings I tried to help her. Time went by and after discovering her problem with food and weight, I tried to put myself in her situation and figure out how to help her. My mistake, because that ended up affecting me very seriously and I ended up hating my whole body and weight, I started to stop eating and all my mental stability ended up breaking down.

On the other hand, I also remember that course with much appreciation, since that year I publicly declared my sexual orientation. From then on I began to feel much freer.

Finished first year of compulsory secondary education, or as it is better known here in Spain, the E.S.O. and started second year. This time, I changed classes with Giselle, a friend of mine, and we went to the bilingual course. It was there that I met my best friend. She has accompanied me throughout my life, we have laughed, we have cried, we have always supported each other in everything. Without realizing it, she became one of the family.

That course ended and the third year began. I met more people. All of them important to this day and it is from now on that my story begins.This is how we leave 2021 to go back to 2017. Let's go from Lara with 19 years old and go to 14 years old.