•flashback pt 15--•
"JOSHUA WAIT!" Jeonghan shouted as he stopped running and breath heavily to catch his breath with Joshua who looked at him then looked away.
"What.." Joshua said shakingly as he's on the verge of crying.
"W-where are you going? Are you leaving me? Y-you promised not to.." Jeonghan said shakingly too as tears began to come out of his eyes by this point Jeonghan is stressing and panicking on what he should do he's confused and desperate making him angry.
"Jeonghan why do think-" Before Joshua could finish he was cutted off by Jeonghan.
"WHAT KIND OF A BOYFRIEND ARE YOU? YOU PROMISED NOT TO LEAVE ME NOW YOU'RE LEAVING ME?" Jeonghan shouted as he's angry.
'No..that's not what i wanna say.. ' Jeonghan thought as he cant control what to say anymore because of his anger.
He is angry but not to Joshua but Jeonghan is angry at himself... Upon hearing those words Joshua felt a little bit of anger at Jeonghan.
" Haa.. What kind of boyfriend i am?? Now IM THE SELFISH ONE?? YES I KNOW I PROMISED NOT TO LEAVE YOU JEONGHAN.. I promised that to my 'boyfriend' a few months back.." Joshua replied snapping at Jeonghan.
'My boyfriend that i knew a few months back' Joshua thought as his tears fell down his cheeks.
"Wdym my 'boyfriend' I AM YOUR BOYFRIEND I LOVE YOU SHUA MORE THAN ANYONE-" but before Jeonghan can finsih he cutted off.
"THEN ACT LIKE IT!" Joshua shouted looking down then faced the direction on where Jeonghan is making Jeonghan freeze from the expression the younger's making. Joshua is now shaking and crying his tears out while you can see so much pain on his eyes and face making Jeonghan in pain too. Who wouldn't be in pain if you see your lover in pain and on top of that your the one who gave your lover that pain which made Jeonghan just freeze.
'W-what had i done to him?' Jeonghan thought as he felt the extreme pain just by looking at Joshua who's in more pain that Jeonghan gave him.
"A-act like you love me, Show me... That you love me" Joshua continued with a much more calming tone now but a lot of pain in that tone.
"I-i AM loving you Shua what do you mean-" Jeonghan replied but stopped.
"So.. are ignoring me for days, avoiding me for days and.. Even acted like you didnt know me yesterday infront of your "Friends"
Is loving me..?"Joshua asked looking at Jeonghan who's looking down.
'H-he's right how is that loving him Jeonghan your stupid, your the asshole' Jeonghan thought as he continued to look down and clinched his fist.
" Hmm.. Jeonghan i do love you a lot and that wont change, but i learned sonething from coming to this country" Joshua said as he wiped his tears and took a deep breath making Jeonghan look to him immediately.
"W-wha.." Jeonghan looking at Joshua.
"The thing about this country is that it's hard to love.. And so are you" Joshua said looking directly at Jeonghan's eyes then looked away he turned around to cross the road leaving Jeonghan there who was stunned by the words he just heard.
'No no.. Joshua please... Idiot stop him! Jisoo please.. ' Jeonghan thought as he looked at Joshua who's currently looking down while crossing the road Jeonghan then turned to look at Joshua's right to see a car going in fast speed..
'im sorry hannie' Those words kept coming upt to Joshua's mind while crossing the road making him cry and not aware of his surroundings not until he heard Jeonghan shout.
"JOSHUA LOOK OUT!" Jeonghan shouted making Joshua look at his right to see a car who's already beside him then..
Brakes and a loud bang were heard. At this point Joshua had already been hitted by the car and is currently on the ground little bit of consciousness with his head bleeding from the fall.
"JOSHUA!" Jeonghan who's crying his heart out immediately ran to Joshua who's on the verge of dying.
'H-huh.. What happend? Ah i got hit by a car and now dying... Jeonghan's running towards me.. Heh how unlucky i am...' Those we're Joshua's last thoughts and the last words emhe before he fully lost conscious is..
" Jisoo.."
" Dont go.."
•--End of flashback--•
(Present timeee)
A/N: Yay were back i hope this doesn't confuse the others so basically the flashback ends and where going back to the present time where Joshua fainted in chp 7 :))
Joshua slowly opened his eyes and look around to see that he's in his room and looked beside him to see Jeonghan sleeping sitting down while laying his head on Joshua's bed.
"Hyung! Your awake!" Vernon said hurringly hugging the older as Joshua hugged back.
"How long was i out for?" Joshua asked while the two broke the hug.
"For about 12 hours hyung" Vernon replied.
"That long huh? I guess it's understandable since I've took a trip down my memory lane Right Chwe?" Joshua smiled and sent the hint at the younger making Vernon realize.
"H-hyung.. You remember?"
A/N: okayyyyy im sure if you read the whole thing you wont be confused and yeah more update and see ya'll next chap🤍
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Fanfiction"Dont go.." They never thought loving would be this hard. Only a trial for now dunnoe if imma continue?
