The end || ANGST STORY (+ Hazbin Hotel fanfic)

The day after

Anthony POV:

⚠️TW!!⚠️ Suicide mentions

The day after was completely silent. Hard to tell if this was better or worse. I'm holding Alastor in my chest. I was incredibly on edge. That was the scariest night of my life. Now we just sit and wait for the doctors to fix him I guess. This impending anxiety is horrid. The moment I saw him just keeps replaying in my head. He really could have died, if I wasn't awake it would be too late.. the thought of that scared me so badly I started to sob again. It woke Alastor up. "Anthony? Are you okay?.." he said anxiously. I was too upset to speak. He hugged me tightly. "Shhh.. everything is alright my dear" he says to me. That sounded really romantic.. fuck, what are we? I've had sex with him and cuddled him yet we're just friends still. I mean that part definitely is my fault for not really explaining that but things are starting to feel different. I feel like we should be something. God I'm selfish.. thinking about this while my brother is barely breathing.. I should check on him.
I started to get up. Alastor looked at me, confused. "Where are you going?" He asked. "I'm worried about Arackniss.. I've never been this scared before.." I told him. He moves my bangs out of my face to see both my eyes. I'm anxious he'll say something about my heterochromia but he doesn't. "He'll be okay Anthony, you should let him rest. The doctors are handling it the best they can, and they'll tell you when they're done visiting, okay?" He smiles sweetly. I nod so he knows I was paying attention. He hugs me. "You're beautiful by the way... I've never seen your blue eye before." He says to me. Beautiful? My dad always hated me for having different eyes. He said it was hideous and people would think I'm ugly if I didn't hide it. I hugged Alastor back tightly. That means so much to me. He laughs a bit at my sudden reaction. I feel my face heat up a bit. "Aww, are you blushing darling?" He asked. AHG! Why's he gotta talk like that?!! My heart's beating outta my chest now for some reason and I feel like I can't breathe. Am I dying too now?! Alastor laughs more and brushes it off like it's nothing. Ik finally able to calm down. I'm probably super weird in his opinion.

Molly POV:

The day after my brother attempted suicide.. I'm not sure if today or yesterday is the scariest part. I love my family so much yet I couldn't protect him. What am I doing wrong? Why couldn't I be there for him then?! I'm failing as their older sibling.. I'm SUPPOSED to be someone they can rely on. If I can't even do that then how can I ever be happy with myself? Myself.. I'm thinking about myself during all this?! Arackniss needs me and I'M choosing to be selfish and worry about me instead of him.. how can I be there for him though when the doctors need to work?.. maybe they'll tell me when he's hungry or something. Yeah! I'll cook for him like he's never been fed before! Atleast then I'm actually doing something for him.. I get up and head to the kitchen, I start looking through our cookbooks to see what I can throw together. I decided on cake. Cake is usually only made for special occasions so I figured I'd make something really special for him. Icebox cake will do.
I get 2 cups of heavy whipping cream, 2 table spoons of confectioner's sugar, 1 teaspoon vanilla extract, 1 9-ounce package of wafers, and chocolate curls. I follow the cookbook directions after. It takes me a bit, but I get it done. I set it to cool. I'm excited! In sure it will come back amazing. The doctors leave Arackniss' room for the day and come talk to me. They tell me he should be alright, only one more visit just to monitor him, then that becomes our job. I'm guessing they used the iron lung or something. I didn't know if they worked that fast or not. Maybe this won't be too horrible, though it's hard to really believe that.. they tell me he's taking a nap, probably passed out from all the "excitement", of course they're being sarcastic to try and help. Arackniss.. I promise I'll be here for you this time.. after this, I'm never going to let anything slip past me again. I will protect them, it's what mom would want. I know she'll be proud. When dad comes home I'm gonna kick his ass for not being here! I can't pay a medical expense on my own, I don't have a job, and I'm a woman in the 'twenties - not many options for me. Dad better pitch in with that cash him and mom used to always fight about, I could hear them through the walls: "Why can't you use it to support the family?", "We'll need it when the stock markets fall" or whatever. Dad's never gonna drop a dime for us unless one of us catches polio or somethin'. Actually, scratch that. He'd probably watch us die. I've gone too dark again.. I shouldn't think these things. I'll clean to get my mind off it, dad always liked a clean house.. I look for the broom and dust pan in the kitchen closet. It's buried in the corner by the mop bucket and some other miscellaneous things. I start frantically cleaning even though there isn't really any dust bunnies or anything. I wonder how Anthony's taking this situation. Anthony's always been a bright and happy kid, I'd hate for this to the thing that finally ends that. I know it's sort of "supposed to" because it definitely is a serious situation, but we could all use a little light right about now. I know Arackniss could. I feel bad. Arackniss used to have that same spark too, but dad killed it. All he ever wanted was to make dad proud. Then one day dad sealed him away in his room for a couple years. I was scared he would die. Mom screamed at dad for it when she found out. Anthony told me sometimes he could hear him through the walls, crying or talking to himself. I don't blame him, I'm sure it must've been lonely. Maybe that's why he keeps all of us at arm's length. Dad shattered his trust in family in general I guess. Makes sense. He can be a real monster sometimes. I'm never gonna let anyone hurt my brothers like this again..