Used. (KiriBaku)

2 - Drive

"And you say he is using you? Why is that?" I actually did not have the answer to this question myself...

"Everyone else has so why wouldn't he? Plus I see the difference in how he acts, he is harsh and rude to everyone else, hell even the boss takes his crap. But not me... He always restrains himself in a way, he's nice, too nice. He treats me different to get what he wants from me." I watched as the doctors face exploded with curiosity, he began scribbling away enthusiastically.

"And why is that?" There was a new found interest in his voice. Maybe I was close to a breakthrough or something.

"I haven't figured that out yet. It's not sex like my past relationships. No, this is different." And as quickly as it came, his curiosity left.

"What about your eating? Has that improved? I see you've gained a good amount of muscle since three weeks ago." I felt the need to cover myself, to be ashamed. "Have you been drinking those shakes the doctors prescribed?" I gave a nod, though it wasn't fully true. I had skipped quite a few of them. "And your medication?" I could tell our session was coming to and end, he always asked the same questions.

"The Zoloft has been fine, though if I take it after 6 am I tend to get migraines, and feel nauseous. I think it's making my anxiety worse? The valium isn't working the same way it used to. I've been taking it three to four times a day like you prescribed." He gave a small hum.

"Do you think the 'Katsuki Bakugou' issue is causing you more stress?" I gave a small nod, not really connecting the dots before he asked. "Alright, I'll up your dose and we'll see how that goes. We'll talk next week, are you available the eighteenth of December?" I gave another nod as I stood. "Good good, I'll see you then." I left his office and walked to the foyer, putting my shoes on at the door and placing the slippers in the 'dirty' bin. I waved the receptionist goodbye and left, making my way to T's car. I can't believe I leave work early to do this shit. I got into the drivers side and my chest began to tighten, I felt overwhelmed, although it wasn't a new feeling. I tried to calm down. Frantically I reached into my glovebox and rummaged through it, finding my pills and pulling them out. I fiddled with the cap before getting one out, swallowing it dry. I dropped the bottle back into the compartment and shut it. My panic grew for a few seconds more, I pulled my knees into my chest and put my head down between them. I squeezed myself in an attempt to create pressure. I felt the anxiety slowly wash away as the pill started to take affect. Once I felt in-control I turned the car on and began to drive, Once I arrived home I took a deep breath before coming out. I made it to my door and unlocked it, struggling with the key as my hands trembled. Once it opened I saw my two roommates on the couch, both their heads turned and I was immediately crowded against the door.

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