Love Like In The Books

Chapter Five

Sarah Green

I took a bite into my noodles but I almost stopped eating when I felt Killian's eyes on me. I chewed ever so slowly before I stood up. Clearing my throat I look back at the guys. "I'll be in my room." Squeezing past Arlo I made my way to my room.

I never liked eating in front of people. It doesn't seem right. It always feels like they are judging me for how I eat, what I eat or me in general. So I avoided it as much as possible. It was very rare for me to be open and free about my appetite in front of anyone. But Arlo is one and the very few of them.

But sensing Killian's gaze on me made me uncomfortable but not in a bad way. Though my stupid heart fluttered then too. But I just didn't like the audience when I ate. So I sat down on my bed and legs crossed a pillow on my lap with the plate and my tab.

I liked reading on my tab when I'm eating, afraid I might get the paper dirty or will get oil marks on it. I never did that. I was currently reading 'The Foiled Plan by Veronica Lancet' and to say this book is the epitome of darkness.

As blind as I am to red flags and trigger warnings I was so into this book that even after reading the gruesome things I couldn't put it down. A small smile sat on lips as I munched down on my food. When done with my food I let the plate slide down as I placed it on the floor, remembering to take it out when I'm done with this chapter.

And I find myself again in the same old position with a pillow under my chin and me laying on my stomach with my legs in the air. My eyes take in each and every word that I read though my thighs clench together as I bit down on my lips. Gulping down I turn the page. Biting the inside of my cheek as Rafael places Noelle on her piano and spreads her leg wide open.

"I'll turn that into a reality if you'll give me that look while we do it." Startled I jumped at the voice and flipped my tab over. And sat up coming face to face with Killian—who is a little too close for my preference. His hands in his pocket as he leaned down as if trying to read what I was reading. His face is so close to mine that I can notice the small hairs on his face. Smell his perfume which almost made me shiver in delight. And see the intensity in his eyes as he watches me.

"Stop" he says so harshly I frown and look in his eyes. But his eyes aren't near mine but focused on my lips. His hand comes up as his warm palm cups my cheek. The butterflies in my stomach fly so wild I can't seem to get a hold on them. His thumb traces my cheek so gently before swiping over my bottom lip.

My breath gets stuck in my throat as I look at him. But his eyes are solely focused on my lips. And ever so gently he tugs my bottom lip off from my teeth. For a moment his touch stills his eyes gaze into mine as none of us backs off. But then his eyes trace my face like he's learning me. Trying to catch and lock each of my details in his mind.

"Don't bite your lips." He says so softly that my heart turns into a puddle of mud. But I exhale a shakey breath before I lean back from his touch. Breaking off whatever spell he bubbled us into.

"What are you doing in my room?" I questioned my voice squeaky as I cleared my throat again. He stands back up shoving his hands down into his pockets. Giving a slight nod he speaks "I came to say bye. I was leaving." My mouth opens in a silent 'Oh' but I managed to give him a jerky nod.

"Bye" I said still not looking at him, too embarrassed and delighted by the encounter that happened between us just now. My heart somehow calms down as I watch him looking at me weirdly so I raise an eyebrow at him. "What?" I asked him.

Shaking his head he turns and leaves the room but fails to hide the small smile on his face.

When he leaves and closes the door behind him I turn around my eyes wide with the realisation as I buried my face in the pillow screaming. Taking in a deep breath the train of thoughts reached its destination. When the first thought pops into my mind.

'You should have kissed him.'

'Shut up stupid mind.'

'Just sayin' '