Sisters | Taylor swift

5 - Sad Beautiful Tragic

Tw - eating disorder

Sad Beautiful Tragic -  Taylor Swift

Words, how little they mean
When you're a little too late
I stood right by the tracks
Your face in a locket
Good girls, hopeful they'll be and long they will wait

Taylor pov

"Ok hurry up, get ready we're already late" I say trying to rush Bily as we are in fact late to my friends album release party. The 'happier than ever' album release party to be exact. It's Billies new album and of course Bily and I will go to support her! "Ok ok" Bily says as she rushes into the bathroom with a pile of clothes in her hand. The bathroom door slams shut due to Bily rushing."Sorry!" She calls out. I simply laugh at her. I sit around on my phone until Bily finishes but before I know it ten minutes has passed.

"Bily hurry up!," I call out. I don't get a reply. "Seriously we're running really late" Still no response. "Bily?" I ask, my voice visibly softens. I walk up to the bathroom door, pressing my ear up against it to see if I can hear anything from her. I hear a soft faint sob."Baby? Are you ok?"
Silence. "Honey I'm coming in ok?" I say as my hand finds it's way to the door nob. I wait five seconds before opening the door. I see my baby curled up in a ball crying silently into her legs. My heart immediately drops. Whoever hurt her better watch the fuck out.

"Oh baby. What happened?" I quickly rush to her side pulling her into my embrace rocking us slightly side to side."T-Taylor I'm fat! I'm ugly." She crys out, her sobs no longer silent. "Bily stop it. Don't you ever say that again. Your beautiful." I rub her back. Where is she getting all this from?
"I'm not I'm not! Everyone calls me fat and ugly, I tried eating less but I can't lose the weight, make it go away Taylor!" She sobs into my arms scratching at her belly. I swear I feel my heart breaking for her. She's 11 for god sakes she shouldn't even be thinking about her weight. I'm quick to grab her hands and wrap them around myself.

"Bily. Who's saying this to you?" I question while placing my own arms back around her. "The Internet." She cries into my chest leaving a small patch on my white shirt."Oh honey. The internet is a cruel place. You're not ugly nor fat and I don't want you to ever say that again. Your the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen in my life. If anything your under-weight Bily and it can be very dangerous if you don't eat properly. People online have nothing better to do than poke at other people to make them feel shitty. Please come to me when your feeling like this my love, under eating isn't the solution. I love you Bily."

"I feel gross" she continues to let tears fall down her red cheeks."I know I'm sorry honey, do you want me to go get you something else to wear? Something you'll feel more comfortable in?" I ask. It mustn't help that she's wearing a little crop top and a little skirt. "Please" she says softly.
"Ok, I'll be right back" i kiss her blonde locks before peeling away from my poor girl. I rush toward my suitcase fishing out someone baggy jeans and a baggy 'happier then ever' t-shirt for her to wear. I Rush as quickly as i can back to my baby girl. "Does this look alright?" I ask holding the outfit out for her. She nods but doesn't bother to take it.

"Do you want me to dress you?" I say softly knowing how vulnerable she is at the moment. She once again just nods so I take off her tight crop top to replace it with the baggie t shirt and I slip off her skirt before putting jeans on for her.
"Better?" She nods while wiping away her tears looking a little bit better than before. "I'm sorry Taylor" her bottom lip wobbles. "Hey no no. Don't be sorry. Not at all." I rub her shoulders as she stares at herself in the mirror. "Can we just go?" She says sadly while wiping her tear stained cheeks. "We're not leaving until your ok love. Your my number 1 priority. Always." I reassure her before pulling her into my arms. One of my arms wrap around her waist with my other through her curly hair.

I hold her for a while in silence. She's no longer crying she's just leaning against my chest in my arms. "I think I'm ok Taylor, we can go" she pulls away flashing me a little smile. "Are you sure honey? It's ok if we're late." I saying with concern in my voice. "Yeah I'm sure. I just had a Moment, can we please go now?" She says. It was definitely more than a moment. "We'll talk about this later, ok?" I sigh "Ok" she nods in agreement.

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"Bily come talk with me please hun" I say as I sit in our bed waiting for her. I know she's been trying to avoid it. She seemed fine at Billie's party but now that we are back at the hotel she doesn't seem as happy. "Let me change first" she says softly. "Ok baby"

Bily comes back with one of my baggie shirts on before sitting next to me on the bed. "I'm proud that you were eating tonight" "really?" "Mhm. I want you to talk to me about this stuff Bily" "I know Tay I just thought you'd be disappointed or agree that I did need to loss weight." "I'd never be disappointed in you Bily, never ever. I love you and I'll always always be here for you no matter what." "Thank you Tay" she says hugging me. I tell her about my experience with an eating disorder and how I overcame it. I think it helped her a little bit knowing she's not alone.