the 2 a.m boy

Chapter 4

As I got out of the car my heart starting jumping out of chest, BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! Okay, Stasi, you're going to be fine. She'll see you and she'll cry, and you'll stay strong. Whatever you do, don't cry. Don't give in to the fact that she's trying to make you feel for her.
I tell myself not to buy my mums shit, every time we visit her. For the first 3 or 4 times the first 15 minutes was spent crying, and hugging. But then I was diagnosed, and I stopped caring, just sat there and stared into space while dad told her everything that I had been doing. I can remember one exact day
12th December 2014,
"She's kind of just been sitting around in her room" dad started
"She needs to pull her head in, I'm sick of her coming here and not speaking" mum said sighing.
I looked up from the book I was pretending to read and kind of just looked around acting dim. "She's acting like that to annoy me! I know she is" her face went red, and I could see her getting angry. My dad saw what was happening and he stood up to walk around to her but she cracked, she flipped the table and start screaming "I'M THE ONE STUCK IN HERE! SHE DOSEN'T GET TO COME HERE AND ACT LIKE A LITTLE COW!" She kicked a chair, and a 2 security guards rushed over and grabbed her arms, she kicked and screamed and the security guard pulled something out and jabbed it into her upper arm, sedating her.
She fell limp and the security guards dragged her out, while another escorted my father and I out.

We've never been back since, I've been to scared, that she'll flip out. The doctors say it was because they changed her meds but if she was going to flip why didn't they keep her away? Until she was stable. Dad pulled me from my thoughts "are you ready?" I smoothed my black vest, "as ready as i'll ever be" he smiled a little and walked towards the tall white building. I followed behind him slowly. He spoke into a speaker looking thing "Maxwell Pellow, here to discharge Lillian Edwards" the doors opened and we walked inside, it was so creepy, white walls with bars every where, between windows, doors, nobody was escaping. It was like a prison. Everyone felt trapped. I caught up with my dad as he was standing by a front desk talking to one of the nurses, "You really think she's improved?" He asked the nurse, she nodded eagerly, "Yes Mr Pellow. Next week she'll have her assessment next week. And then she may be able to leave within 2 weeks after that" I saw my fathers face light up instantaneously, the nurse pushed a button and another door opened, and my father rushed towards it "Lillian! Darling!" I went stone cold, I shoved my hands deep into my pockets, and stood their awkwardly, my father wrapped his arms around my mother as she started crying, "it's been so long, Maxie" she whispered, I started fidgeting in my pockets, as she pulled away from my father, he took her bags, slinging them over his shoulder "Ana, hug your mother" she started walking towards me and I took a step backwards, her eyes widened, "Anastasia Eleanor Edwards!" My father started, she held up her hand, shushing him, "no, it's fine, she's just confused," I laughed, "I'm not confused about anything. I have cancer, and I'm clinically depressed" I said with a sarcastic snicker "so you! Get let out of this place!" I say gesturing my hands around, "this is so crazy!" I stomped my foot, my dad grabbed my arm rubbing the fabric against my skin, making my squirm in pain, "Let go of me!" I yanked my arm away and started to walk out to the car, the door opened and I heard a nurse talking to my dad and I heard footsteps behind me, "please, Ana, just talk to me!"
I flipped my head around, my body naturally following, "you don't just get to come back into my life you know? When you were in it, everything was fine, but then you cracked and everything got to hard. So you tried to get out the easy way. Well unlucky dad caught you right?" I said, she started to speak and I shut her down "NO! Don't, try, I've been with you less then 10 minutes and I'm done with you" with those words, I started walking to the car, I flung the door open and sat in the back, slamming the door for effect.
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My door was gone, dad took it off its hinge. He said when I spend the day with mum I get it back. I woke up this morning and it was gone, I started screaming and dad thought I was vomiting, he rushed up but mum beat him to it, "you spend a day with me and you get it back love" she said as he dropped to my side with a bucket. I started screaming again, "I'M SIX FUKCING TEEN YEARS OLD! I NEED PRIVACY!" Dad smiled "you also need a mother" I grabbed my robe and wrapped it around my shivering body, "fine, but I choose what we do" I said, quietly. "What?" Said mum, "I said I'll hang out with you, with two conditions, dad puts back my door, and I get to choose what we do!" She grinned widely, "go get ready, we leave at 10:00" I grabbed some clothes and walked into my bathroom, "fine, and we're going to play mini golf!" I shouted from the only privacy I had. "Put her door back Max!" She said softly, "It worked!" He said surprised, "yeah, being in there gave me a lot of times to think of scenarios that I might have to face when I got out"she chuckled. I opened the door and stuck my head out, "GET OUT OF MY ROOM!" I screamed, they jumped, and both started walking out. I turned the shower on and stepped in, closing the glass door behind me, at first the initial shock of the freezing water made me tempted to get out, but then it slowly got warmer, and warmer. I lathered my hair with my favorite apricot scented shampoo and conditioner and I soaped myself up with the strawberry body wash that my brother had sent me for my 15th birthday, I only used it on days when I felt at my worst. But today I was using it to brighten up my mood.
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I walked into the kitchen after my shower, in a halter top, and a skater skirt, with black stockings, and some gold doc martens, "oh honey! You look wonderful!" dad said, as my mother looked she said "are those my docs?" I went the shade of a tomato, "Dad gave them to me sorry," she shrugged, "no biggie, they don't fit me anyway" I sat down at the table and dad placed a drink of orange juice, and a plate of peanut butter toast in front of me. "Eat up" he said, I sipped slowly at my orange juice, nibbling at my toast, I checked my phone once or twice, not getting anything. No one texted me since I went a wall.
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"I am going to win!!" We were at mini golf and it was the last round, I was 3 points about from winning, I lined myself up, and hit the little ball, it went straight in! "HOLE IN ONE! 8 points, I WIN MOTHER FUC-" I got cut off by my fathers disapproving face, I just stood up straight, and ran my fingers through my hair. "I won, so you owe me an ice cream." I said to my dad, he just shrugged, "who was going to pay anyway? Neither of you have money!" he laughed and both followed closely behind him mum looked at me with those mum eyes, "what?" I asked, "nothing" she said, "you've just grown up a lot since I last saw you"
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A/N: well yo, yo, yo, yippee yo, yippee yay.
I'm back, with another chapter, I think this ones quite long. Plz do enjoy, love you lots get excited for the next chapter, shits gonna go down!
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