the 2 a.m boy

Chapter 5

"You're just bones and a beating heart, how did you fuck me up so badly?" He was standing there, 3 feet away, in the rain, I started to shiver and he took a step forward "I choose you Stas, can't you get that?" I shook my head "No, I can't! I loved you with all of me, and now your doing this, no, please don't!" I started to say, he turned away "you don't get a say in who hurts you," I laughed "that's bullshit, Co, and you know it. You choose to hurt me, I saw it coming but I didn't stop it" i stepped out into the rain, "just don't do it, you promised me. We promised each other!" I screamed! Thunder rumbled in the distance and he smiled lightly, "we promised each other a lot of things, you can't have thought we could keep all of them?" I thought about it for a second, when I looked up I saw him walking away, taking a swig at a bottle, then lighting a cigarette. I sat down on the curb and starting crying. Then screaming. I eventually stood up and made my way back into my house.
"Anastasia wake up!" My dad shook my awake from my sleep, "what? What do you want?" I looked at the clock, "it's 4 a.m!" He looked concerned "you were calling out his name again" mum was perched on the edge of my bed. "is this co-" I instantly cut her off "DON'T SAY HIS NAME!" She stood up, "I, I'm sorry!" She touched my dads arm, and they walked out. I stood up and walking into the bathroom locking it behind me, I opened up the cabinet and started rummaging through it, looking for something, then I found it. The ring, the purple ring. The 'promise' ring he gave me on our second date... I dropped it in the sink, and then sat on the toilet seat, "what am I going to do, about this?" I was thinking of a way to get out of this house, then it hit me. A couple of weeks ago, the doctor said if I wanted I could go and stay in a hospital for kids with cancer, it was sort of like a place to go before you died. I had a 50/50 chance, the doctors said the chemo might not help..
I stood up from the edge of the bath and walked downstairs and into my fathers office, my presence seemed to silence his and my mothers talking. My father started to speak, "we've noticed that you don't seem very happy living here anymore. So, we've come up with an alternative to living here.
Either you go and live with Tony in Michigan, or you can stay in this state, in that children's cancer hospital Dr Morgan spoke about. It's a 45 minute drive and it has a school in it, it's fully equipped. And we'll visit loads!" I started to breath normally, then I smiled a little "that sounds great!" I said quietly, I knew it was killing my dad, that his little princess wasn't so little anymore. And with mum possibly not coming back for a few more months after this week. He'd be alone. "I want to try the hospital" I said, my mother put her hand on top of my fathers. "We'll support you with whatever decision you make, right Max?" She looked at my father he nodded "right darling" I've emailed Doctor Morgan about the details a few days ago, she said that you could start as early as next Monday" he grinned.
Next Monday? Next Monday! That's the day after tomorrow. "We have details on the dorm you'll live in, and you'll have a room mate, unless you want to live in the singles dorm. Where you'll be alone." I shook my head, "I'll share with someone. It'll give me a chance to make a friend!" My mother clapped her hands, "Wonderful!" I just started to walk out, "Are you going to start packing?" My father asked, "I was planning on it, yeah.." I smiled "I'll help!" Mum cried, jumping to her feet and grabbing my hand, eager to get me away from my father. I don't know what her problem was but she was way to happy about the fact that I was leaving...
********MONDAY*******
The car ride was longer then dad had let on. Try more like 2 hours. Well in saying that he's the slowest driver ever! And Doctor Morgan, can get there in 45 minutes... Doctor Morgan will check up on my once a month, and I'll have her cell number so I could reach her at any time. "You excited for your life to change?" Dad asked as he took a left turn down some random road called 'Greenvalley' wait, Greenvalley hospital is the name of where I'm going! Wait, we're nearly there! Finally! I took my headphones out of my ear as my father started to talk "Well Ana, we're going to miss you!" Mum had her assessment early, she was out. For good, the doctor said she'd improved a lot, and if she wanted she could leave. So she decided to, "I'll miss you too dad, and you too mum." I said, I didn't want her to feel left out. Her and I hadn't talked much but I feel like we'd connected, and both accepted that the other had done and said things that we both shouldn't have. She just nodded her and smiled.
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We hauled my last suitcase into the room, I could be here for up to 3 years. Until we knew for sure that I was NEC (no evidence of cancer. Fake TFIOS fans!)
Basically, I'm here until I die, or until I kill myself. Either or, I heard the doctors talking to m dad when I got here, the chemo isn't working. It's useless. They're starting me on this new drug phalanxifor, it's supposed to shrink the cancer... Yeah, anyway.
I'm sharing a room with a girl called Stevie. But she asked me to call her Panda. I like her, she seems so innocent, maybe I could change her, pull her into my world? Show her that life isn't so perfect... Or maybe she'll be a person who pulls me back into reality, proves to me that life isn't just alcohol, cigarettes and love. Well, depends what sort of love. Maybe she can show me what a true friendship is. How to be a good friend.
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Panda snuck me onto the roof, on my first night, at 2 a.m, that's my favorite time of the morning. When the moon and stars are at the most prettiest, they just lay still like they're asleep, I told her this. So she took me up here. Her last room mate jumped off the balcony in our room. I shuddered a little, another suicidal person, had slept in the same bed as me. Panda asked me what my story was.
"Well, I was diagnosed around 3 months ago, and I have leukemia, I'm nearly 16 and I basically only like a select group of people" she smiled faintly and nodded. Laying on her back staring up and the stars, she gestured for me to lay down the same way. "So what's your real story?" She asked again, her curiousness getting under my skin. "We met, 5 minutes ago basically" I said out raged, "hold you god dammed horses!" I stood up and balanced walking back to the balcony and climbing the railing to get into our room. She sat up and started to say something then she shut her mouth and just lay back down, closing her eyes she started to sing to herself "I blame it on my a.d.d baby" I recognized the song but couldn't put my finger on it, as I got into our room, I couldn't bare to be in it. I opened the door and spotted a light at the end of the room, I decided to walk the opposite way, grabbing a flashlight and my key to the dorm, I started to explore
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Him. His chocolate brown eyes. And his jet black hair. And his ripped jeans, his wrist bands that I knew he was wearing to cover up scars. I saw them when he took off his jacket. He didn't know I was watching. But I was, and oh good god, I couldn't get enough. The way his eyes sparkled as he listened to music, and I bet it was his favorite band. Because he got so excited when the music came on. And he bobbed his head, to the beat. Just little things, that anyone could have noticed, but I would remember them. 

A/N: Don't hate for this, it's over 1,000 words, and I wrote it last week, sorry about not updating sooner, I have writers block. But my shitty stuff is happening. And I don't want to stress my bestfriend so I kinda have nobody to talk to about it

Anyways, love youuuuuuuu x