Won't Hold Back (COMPLETED)

Chapter 9: Part 3

Author's Note: I can't believe y'all been rocking with this story for over a year now! Thank you SO much for your views, hilarious & sweet comments throughout this story, and love you've shown for these characters.

Much love,
xoloviexo

Blue's POV

I was out eating lunch with Zaya and Krista, and was waiting for the perfect time to get some advice from them. We had an off day from tour so Krista took us for a girls day out.

We were in a secluded booth at Shake Shack drinking our milkshakes after finishing our burgers.

"Blue you been quiet for a minute now. Something's wrong?" Krista asked me.

"Yeah I peeped it too but just wanted to give you your space." Zaya said.

"It's nothing bad or anything but I do need some advice from you two." I said.

"From me? You literally never take my advice." Zaya joked. We all laughed.

"No this time I would really like your opinion...So you know how much I love my Mom and Chelle together, and I guess I wanted to know when did y'all feel comfortable calling Auntie KiKi, Mama?" I asked them.

They both awed at me while I covered my face. Krista pulled my hands down.

"Awww Ivy Blueeeeeee! Well to answer your question, I was the first to call her that on her birthday. It was the birthday Mommy proposed to her in Vegas and it felt natural. We were on FaceTime before they headed to dinner and seeing her so happy gave me the courage to just say it." Krista said.

"Yeah, once Krista said it me and Wozy just started calling her that too. She was acting like a parent to us for awhile at that point so it felt natural. Do you feel like that with TT Chelle?" Zaya asked.

"Yeah I do. She feels like another mother to me. She disciplines me but isn't too strict. She cooks, cleans, does my hair —just so much for me and has never yelled at me or treated me bad. Even when she was just Auntie Belle she was always the one I wanted to be up under all the time. I guess I just feel like I'll be betraying my Dad in a way and I don't want to cause any problems." I said truthfully. I felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders revealing that. I looked at my cousins, who I really consider my sisters and besties, as they processed what I said.

"Well I can see how you may feel like you're betraying your Dad but by considering his feelings and not yours won't do you any good in the end. If calling her Mom makes you happy and feels right for you, do it. You never told BB about this, have you?" Krista questioned.

"No. I know that I can always talk to her but sometimes I feel like my Mama has so much on her plate and I don't like bothering her too much when she's on tour mode. Plus she's really been putting all of her attention on Chelle because she hasn't  been herself lately." I said the last part softly.

"What you mean by that? What's going on with her?"

"Yeah what's wrong with TT Chelle?" The girls asked me all at once.

I sighed and began spilling the tea....

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Erica's POV

It was fun seeing my babies on tour but now it's back to business and I have a lot of changes to be made.

First, I think it's time to retire from my radio show. After 10+ years of doing radio, my passions have changed and I want to explore new things in my life. Radio consumes so much of my time and I think that I've solidified my mark in radio.

I haven't told Ki how I'm feeling about radio but I know she'll be supportive. Truthfully, I just want to retire from the music industry altogether and just be happy with my family. That's a conversation for another day though. I don't know if I'm in a rut but I want to slow down with my career and focus more on family.