Won't Hold Back (COMPLETED)

Chapter 9: Part 1

Erica's POV, Three weeks later

Tuesday morning

"You keep holding him and he's going to get spoiled." I turned my head to see my wife in the doorway smiling.

"I can't help it baby. He's so cute and little." I cooed as I held him in my arms. I could hear her approaching from behind as she wrapped her arms around me.

Étienne Massai Atkins-Sheard.

That's the name we chose for our son. We wanted to give him a beautiful name and have the same initials as me.

"Have you gave some thought to the Stellars offer?" She asked. I shook my head no.

"I don't think I should do it. They're asking me to make a decision today and that's days before Essence drops our cover. I don't want them to rescind the offer if I say yes." I said.

"I understand that babe but you shouldn't decline an opportunity based off the what ifs that could happen. You have a good relationship with them from your past hosting days, and they're coming to Atlanta this time around instead of Vegas." She said.

"I hear you Ki, I really do. I'll make a decision after I go shopping with the girls." I said.

Ki has been healing nicely after her c-section but has a few more weeks left before she can feel like her normal self. We go walking every morning and evening like the doctor suggested to help the recovery process and she's not lifting anything heavy.

"Can you believe the girls will be going on a world tour next week?" She said with a pout. I frowned.

"Don't remind me. I'm going to miss our babies but they honestly got bit by the entertainment bug. We're still surprising them at the London show, right?" I asked.

"Yep and my mom and aunts are going too. The fact that Bey sampled Center Thy Will for Church Girl still blows my mind." Ki gushed.

"Krista says the arrangement for that is crazy." I said.

"I don't want to upset you but are you going to give Tina and nem a call back?" She asked. She threw me off with that question so I shrugged my shoulders.

The last time I've spoken to my sisters Tina, Shanta & Alana was probably around Kai's 3rd birthday and honestly I don't even remember why we stopped talking. Those three have never supported my relationship and I'm too grown to force anyone to accept me as I am. Everyone in my family, besides Mommy, that knows about us have come to terms with my relationship to Kierra and I don't see why they're still stuck. Well, I know why but it's none of my concern anymore.

"I feel like Tina is only blowing up my phone to bring up something Mary Mary related and I don't have the energy for it. I'll never do another gig with her until she's comfortable having a gay sister." I spoke.

"Okay, well you know I try my best not to pry so I'll leave you alone on that. Now go wake up the girls and give me my baby." I raised my eyebrow.

"Your baby?" I questioned. She playfully rolled her eyes.

"Give me OUR baby." She emphasized. I laughed and carefully placed our son in her arms.

"You going back to our room or staying in here?" I asked.

"Imma sit in the chair and rock him back to sleep. Oh can you bring the breast pump close to me?" She asked. I watched her slowly sit down in the rocker as I moved the machine and bottle tray next to her.

"Imma go get dressed and then get started on breakfast. What you want to eat?" I asked.

"Umm can you fix those southwest skillet bowls and put the sour cream on the side?" She asked.