G×G imagines

A heart's unfolding

N/A: you won't regret listening to the song.♡

TW: anxiety attack

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I open the door...eyes red, tears staining my cheeks, hair messy.

She looks at me her eyes slightly widening at my state.

"Come in" I move out of the way so she can walk in.

"I am sorry you had to come this late, you didn't have to for real, it gets better on its own" I say feeling guilty she drove all this way at midnight.

I called her a while ago because I wasn't feeling okay and she said she is on her way.

No matter how much I told her I am gonna be okay and that we can just text till i fall asleep, she didn't listen . How stubborn she is.

"you know I would do anything for you, I don't care how late it is" she says.

"Thank you" I smile at her.

I lead her to my room and I close the door as she takes a look around.

Books and clothes are scattered everywhere, I can be really messy sometimes.

"So, tell me what's wrong" she asks her voice softening.

"Just my anxiety getting the best of me"

" your exams, right?"

"Yeah, I am really worried my grades won't meet everyone's expectations" I reply.

She nods as for me to go on.

"Like what I am gonna do if things don't go as I planned" I say..my voice shaking.

I start hyperventilating violently as i think about the worst scenarios.

I feel like I forgot how to breath, like I am gonna die.... my hand trembling, and my body sweating.

"Baby, Are you okay?" She asks as she helps me to sit down on the bed.
She gets on her knees in front of me.

"Stay with me please...it's okay."she says as she holds my hands.

"you are gonna be okay, I am not leaving you, I promise" she starts stroking my hands gently.

I can hear her but I can't let out a word.
I feel like my mind is trapped in its own world....my body isn't listening to me.
All the effort i am doing to get out of this trance...it's all in vain.

"Hey, just breathe... breathe with me, we are gonna do that together, okay?" she says as she places one of my hands on my chest and the other on hers.

"Now, follow my breathing."
I can feel her inhaling and exhaling beneath my hand and I try to do the same.

"Just like that. You are doing so good, darling." She says as I feel myself calming down.

A few seconds pass...my heart starts to slow down and I start to regain focus.

"That's it. You are okay, I've got you now"
she gets up to sit next to me and holds me close to her.

I relax into her body resting my head on her shoulder and wrapping my arms around her.

She always knows how to deal with everything I go through.. my anger issues, trust issues, and now my anxiety attacks.

"Stay with me please"

"I will stay for as long as you need" she replies massaging my scalp and playing with my hair gently.

I suddenly feel self conscious.. what if she gets tired from all this. I know I am not easy to deal with.

"I am sorry, I know I am too much. I try to control all of this, all the time, but it's just too hard" i say..tears falling down my cheeks.

"You don't need to apologise about any of this, ever" she replies as she holds my face in her hands making me look at her.

" I am really sorry, u deserve better, you don't deserve any of this"

"Stop, you are my everything, and I deserve nothing but you." she whispers wiping my tears away.

"But_____"

"Shut up. You are stuck with me till the end, baby...whether you like it or not...I am holding you hostage" she says trying to lighten up the mood.

I know I shouldn't be but I just start crying more because of how sweet she is.

"Would you please stop crying because I am starting to think you are sad now cause you can't get rid of me" she chuckles.

"Never" I smile back at her.

"Let's sleep, okay?. You need to rest" she says kissing my cheek.

I nod before she lays down and I lay my head on top of her listening to her heartbeats.

"You are not alone.. you will never be" I hear her say as I start to drift to sleep.

It's beautiful how my heart unfolds when it's her who is taking care of it.

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So that's it, I hope you like it❤