DayItt🌍 (Love Syndrome)

Ch.17

Day
It was evening and I started waking up. I rubbed my eyes. I called 'Itt. Where are u? Can u fetch me a glass of water?' But then I remembered what had happened in the afternoon. I realized and got so angry on myself that I started throwing things here and there. I started crying a mess. I scratched and pulled my hair in frustration. 'Where did we went wrong?' I was pulling out every single thing found making everything a mess. I guess it was my way to take my rage out. While doing that I suddenly came across a letter and some documents. I wiped my tears off with my arm and started opening the envelope.
The letter read
'Hi, Day. If u are reading this that means I am away from u somehow or something happened to me. First of all. I am sorry for everything. Remember, u are my one and only for this life. I never cared about what other's think and say except u. So I want to clear some things. I don't know what will happen today, but all I know is that if u see some intimacy between me and Dan, it's my first and last intimacy with him. I must have did it to gain his trust. I didn't know what had happened to u two before but got to know about it from Dan a few days ago. I never blamed u. U did what was right. But Dan. He was really powerful. If he could find me to use against u, I was afraid he had more ideas. I was afraid he might destroy u or kill u. I could lose anything but u. I used myself as bait because that was the only thing I could do to save u. Being ur husband was the most wonderful thing I experienced but u can't say the same thing about me. U always had to suffer because of me.'

'I did not Itt.' I whimpered while sobbing.
It continued.
'I never could take care of u. I always demanded and u fulfilled. My panic attacks made things worst. I would be lying if I say I didn't hear u say things. I heard many times that u were tired, mentally exhausted by taking care of me. I don't blame u. I myself was tired while taking care for u in those 6 months Where u forgot about me but u had to deal with this for whole ass 2 years. I would have died. Good for u, u could even smile after all this. I heard every single time. On the anniversary, on the day of the buffet when u were talking to Nan about Dan. Dont know, but even a shameless person like me got hurt when u said those words which made me quite after every attack as I cried to sleep every single time u mentioned me as an another thing to worry about. I tried ignoring it but the day u slapped me I got enough of myself. I was literally a burden to everyone around me. I am so fucking useless. U helped my parents run the garage and in everything. But what did I do. Just mess around for ur glimpse once or twice. I am not angry on u but on me. I could never be a good partner for u. I am such a mess that u could never tell me ur problems even if I asked u twice.'

I started remembering the time when he asked me while having sex if I am hiding something. 'Shit, Day. Why didn't u tell him!' I slapped myself and dug my nails on my thighs while sobbing.
'I never became the good partner that u deserve. So I thought I could atleast do something for u. I hope the letter I sent to Nan has been received by him. Day, I am trying my best. But even if those things turn messy, don't blame me. I never wanted to hurt u. But to gain Dan's trust I had to. And u know what is worse, on top of panic attacks, I am sick again. A chronic disease. But let it be a secret. I don't know if I am there with u or not but let me tell u, my love for u is eternally strong. So, if things go wrong, promise me to live for urself and for pa ma. I don't mind if u bring another man for urself. Don't be a fucking widower . U r young and handsome. Now u would say what about we are married, so I also have solution for that. Open the documents after reading this. I want u to live a good and healthy life without stress. As ur stress is basically me, ain't I 😅.
I love u
Itt'
I closed the envelope and closed my eyes in pain. 'Did I make u feel so bad about urself, babe?' I blamed myself.
I started opening the documents which consisted of two topics. One property transfer and second an official divorce approved by court with both our sign on it.
Flashback
Itt
'Day, there is an important document. I need ur sign on it.'
Day
'I will do it later. Just keep it.'
Itt
I sat on his lap 'If u sign it for me now then I will let u have double meal.' And he seductively stared at Day's dick while scrolling his fingers over Day's chest.
Day
'U said it.' I took the papers and signed on it and gave him a peck.
Flashback over.
Day
'U knew everything didn't u. Why? Why didn't u tell me a single thing. I don't want ur property Itt, I fucking want u.'
I cried a mess.

Dad
'U all go home back. As for Neil and Nick, until u get a good home to live, stay at our house. Consider it as ur own. Me and Itt's mom would stay with Day for a while.'
Everyone agreed and hugged Itt's mom.
'Everything will be fine, ma.'

Day
I came out of the room to see Itt's parents.
Mom
'Day, u r awake dear. How r u feeling?' I asked.
Day
I came down. I survived but got their son and love of my life killed. I asked them blankly 'Don't u guys hate me? I was the reason why my Itt is no more. I couldn't protect him. I am useless. I should havent...' I said while sobbing.
Dad
I had never seen Day cry. I knew he loves Itt but this much. I stopped his sentence and added 'We never hated u. Itt was a spoiled child and did whatever he wanted on impulse. Though we mourn his death but we know u r going through a lot too. We never hate u. U r our son as well. We want good for u.' I said and gently took him in a hug.
Mom
'U r our everything Day. U r not alone Day. U have us. We love u.' I encouraged while patting his back.
Day
I got overwhelmed and bursted crying. They continued calming me down saying it's ok.
After a while I remembered something and broke the hug. I wiped my tears 'I have something to ask u.'
Mom
I got curious. 'Whats that Day?'
Day
I quickly went upstairs and bought the documents. 'Do u know these documents.' I asked
Dad
I was shocked to see those papers. 'About property, Itt had came to us a few days ago before the incident and asked to transfer half of the money and property along with garage to u and keep the half to ourselves. We thought he is just being a kid and we trust u, so I signed it up. And as for these divorce papers, I have no idea.'
Mom
'I guess I know.' I tried remembering. 'I had went to the postman for an important letter the other day. He asked me why didn't I tell Itt to fetch it up as he had left a few minutes ago. I guess he had sent these papers for the nullification to US.'
Day
My heart sank. Everything started blurring because of the continuous tears which were forming in my eyes. 'I want some rest.' I said without making an eye contact with them and went to our bedroom.
Dad
'It will take a long time for him to heal. I sighed and looked at Itt's mom. 'And as for us, we have to live with this fact for our entire life. Nothing is more exhausting than seeing our own son's death. It's gonna be a hard journey for us dear.' I said and hugged my wife.
Day
I went to the side of my bed where Itt slept and crawled myself up with a t-shirt of Itt. It smelled like him. It gave comfort.... even of temporarily. 'I never thought u as a burden Itt.' I said as I started bawling my eyes out. 'U had promised me to accompany for my life. Our promises were never meant to break, Itt. I know I slapped u. I crossed my boundaries and hurt u many times but without u I am not able to think and function properly, hun.' I said stuttering to his t-shirt and cried myself to sleep.