DayItt🌍 (Love Syndrome)

Ch.22

Day
I directly went to a bar. I parked my car out and went in. 'Bring the most intoxicating drink present which helps u forget everything.' I said to the waiter with red eyes.
The waiter went while I took out my phone to look the photos and videos of us from the past 4 years.
The waiter came and gave me the drink.
'Give me the bill already. 'I said and ordered more drinks. I paid and warned him not to let anyone come inside.
I started drinking each and every cup. I thought that the more I would drink the more I will be forgetting about the present and come out of pain. But the opposite happened. I started to think about him more. I started remembering all those quirky dates, cute smiles, naughty tricks he used to play on me to grab my attention.
I smiled faintly looking at those pretty pictures of his. 'U r so beautiful.' I said as tears started dropping out of my eyes.
I drank more till the whole 5 bottles got gulped down. 'I so wish to hold u.' I said and gulped the whole glass down.
Neil
I went to bring some books for Nick when I saw Day's car parked out of a bar. I was afraid he might get wasted out of drinks. So I parked and went there. 'Day!' I called out for him as I saw him resting his head on one hand and scrolling something on the phone with tears running down wetting the table he had laid his head on.
'It must be Itt's photos.' I thought and went to him. I gently shaked him 'Day, are u ok?' I asked.
Day
I looked up in blur eyes. 'Sorry sir. I am already taken.' I said and shook his hand out of my shoulder. 'I am Itt's man. He is the only one who can touch me.'
Neil
I had started taking a video recording of him as I thought it to be cute. 'Maybe in future, I might tease u with this.' I said and ended it. 'I know u r his man. But I am ur best friend Neil. Now trust me and come with me.' I said and pulled him by shoulder and took him back to his home.
Day
I rubbed my eyes and confirmed if it was Neil. And then when I was about to lift my finger and say something I fainted.
Neil
I took Day through the backdoor as Itt's parents were asleep. I took him to his room. 'U dumbass, u made the room so messy.' I said and kept him on the nearby table and cleaned the room. I then tucked him to bed and was about to leave when he whispered 'Don't leave me Itt. I was wrong. Stay with me.'
'Everything will be ok buddy.' I stated and went from there.

Next morning
Day
I woke up with a heavy head. I recalled everything with Neil. 'Looks like I have thank him.' I said and tried reaching out for water but couldn't. 'Itt, can u bring me something to drink' and tried waking him up only to realize he wasn't there. Realization got me and I rubbed my eyes and took a glass of water to drink. I went to fresh up myself and was about to pull some clothes when a small camera fell off from the cupboard. I picked it up. 'What is this?' And I tried playing it.
Video 1
'Hiii. This is Itt. And this is my sleepy boyfriend Day.( and pointed towards Day)
Itt
Day wake up. Look we have to go out. And started shaking Day vigorously.
Day
Let's go some other day. I want to sleep. U too come here.
Itt
Ai Day, my hair.
He screamed as the camera went all black and I could hear that we both were cuddling each other.
Video ended.
I chuckled softly and went for other videos. It were mostly us teasing each other. Until I came across a video.
The tape
'Hi Dayyyy! U know what, I love u so much. And there is something that I want to do with u. Make a tattoo.... Have an ice cream in amusement park and taking some balloons and making soap balloons, it seems fun.... how about some piercings. We would look fierceful as fuck. But then still again, u would look more handsome and I have to save u from some daunting eyes.'
I chuckled lightly. He pulled his shirt down a bit
'Do u see this mark. U did this. I am telling u one day I am biting u a big mark on ur shoulder and making u a tattoo out of it. U know what I sometime regretted doing wrong with Night even if it wasn't my intention but somehow I got u. I won't lie those physical pain that u have given me hurts but the mental torture is hell. Before relationship after relationship both. When everything seem to come back in track u lost ur memories. It was really difficult for me to stay happy and calm when u were treating me like shit. U never noticed but I also got a plastic surgery of all the burn marks u have given me. I always wanted ur attention but u always either gave it to Night or work. I really get jealous of Night sometimes. He got the best brother and a loving partner who is patient and kind to him. Who doesn't hit him or harm him anyway. My parents, they love u. Such a hardworking person u r. I really feel my existence to be useless. I don't cook. I can't care. U do both. But there is one thing that I am still surviving on. The hope that u love me a bit. U claimed a relationship but never gave me those rights. Ur anger overtakes every single possibility from u of loving me like any other human. I sometimes feel as if a burden to u. I wanted to make a comeback as a biker but u restricted as u had control on my life. U sometimes treat me good and most of the times treat like shit. And my delulu mind tries searching about something good even in that abuse. The time my panic attacks got worse, instead of cuddling me u used to tell everyone how frustrated u r by me. I hate myself at this extent that u don't even know. Ur love is the only thing that makes me happy even if it's for a few microseconds. I thought that having sex with u will help me get the love I am yearning for, but still it doesn't get better. But it doesn't mean I am not interested in doing that with u. U r so fucking sexy that u urself dont know. So u better make it up for me before our second wedding anniversary. U don't have to give me big gifts or expensive ones. Just love me more. A little bit more.
Though the targeted audience of this video isn't u but if u came across this, then consider it as my random blabber and ignore it. And don't see the other video after this.
But always know, I love u. More than u think, less than I want to.
I would die for u.
Video ended
I gulped my saliva hard. And sobbed.
'U were everything a person wants. Cute kind understanding. I was the faulty one here. I am sorry. U were the sunshine but I became a cloud and overshadowed u in every single thing over my insecurities.' I said as I wailed.
But curiosity was killing me. Why he didn't wanted me to see the video next to this. I thought and scrolled to other video.
Video 3
Before marriage
Itt was tied up on a bed with his leg and hands spreaded and a tissue in mouth.
Day
I fucking told u not to ride bikes still u went there. I love u and care for u still u don't understand my concerns. I said and hovered him and removed the tissue.
Itt
Sorry Day. I am really sorry. Don't do anything to me now. I am really tired from the race. I can't take things anymore. I will do anything u want.
Day
U will do anything right. Look at that camera there. I took his chin up and squished it. Whenever u will look upto this u will remember not to go out of ur boundaries. I pushed and started bringing a whip and a candle. '

I stopped the video as I couldn't take it anymore and slapped myself. 'Why did u do this to him, Day? Whyyyy?'
I gathered my courage and took a long breathe and played the video again.

Itt
Don't do this Day. I am really tired. I am afraid I will get hurt. Don't do this.
Day
U think so. I said and lit the candle up and started burning his chest.
Itt
'Day, ahh. I am sorry Day. Don't do this. It hurts. And he started Licking the burnt marks giving it cold ooze.
Day stop it pls.
Day
I taped him and started whipping him and spanking his butt and fucked him without lube.
Itt
It hurts. Ah it hurts. I am sore.
Video end

I pushed my hair in desperation and gasped. 'I am such a fucked up person to do this with my own lover even if it's before marriage. How can I even do that?' I said while pinching myself hard to release the emotional pain through physical.