911

My life sucks

I don't know where to start.
I think my life is not that good and I don't know what I want my life to be. I'm not talking about the future. Not yet.
Right now I am living with my mid family and my mid self. I am mid because I come from a mid family. And guess what half of them aren't even related to me.
Long story fucking short my mom has had 3 kids with her blood with 3 different men. First being a Mexican who transported his genes to my half brother. The second one who I call "the gingerbread man" cuz yeah. I got his genes which makes me black cuz he is also. And the third and possibly finale one is my current step dad. He's Salvadorian and so is my mom and oh another turd popped out oh wait that's my little sister. Who's also considered my half sister. Aye look I'm not fatherless anymore :p!
And I got 3 more brothers! Thanks step dad!
For making my life worse.
Jk
They're cool
Except for one of them
Like literally
He's not good rn.
Butt that's not why my life sucks.
My life sucks cuz my childhood sucked and so is my teenage years.
And possibly my adulthood too cuz work will be 99% of me being an adult meaning my back is going to look like something.
There's so many things I want to do and try right now and in the future but that is being ruined because I always have to go somewhere with my an adult.
Cuz u know driving exists.
And I'm still a child.
And again work work work or no eat eat eat.
What I mean is there is nothing interesting going in my life and I'm not interesting.
I just live in my room in my step dad's home.
Always glued to the screen and staying awake all night due to my internet addiction.
It's been like this since I was like 10 years old.
My parents always have to work leaving me and my sister nothing but to distract us.
I know it's not my parents fault that they need to work and they were raised like that but It hurts that only me and my sister have to rely on our devices.
Simply because our parents can't always be with us.
They are with us.
Just not giving us the attention and love we should get especially at a young age?
I guess?
I'm unsure. Talking about this makes me emotional.
I don't hate my family but I don't believe they're the best that's all.
I also say this in a respectful way.
This is kinda some of why my life is caca.