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Weird Dream (O.o) ? (trauma??)

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Yesterday I had a dream or so called "nightmare".
I wouldn't say nightmare cuz it wasn't that scary just very weird.

Most of my dreams r weird.
All dreams r weird.

If anyone else had my dreams they would call them nightmares but for me I just don't think they're that scary.

Maybe it's because I'm just a little "different" as I always get that a lot from my fwends.

But then they be reading a book about
"how to please a woman"

or be listening to songs about robot furries capturing and kidnapping children at a pizza restaurant that's also abandoned at some point and they get brutally stuffed inside various different fur suits with many sharp metal parts in it, pressing them, causing them to die from intense suffocation and leaving their souls stuck in colorful abandoned animal suits covered and filled with muck that were made to entertain kids at a chuckey cheese rip off of a restaurant created by an insane serial killer somehow a smart engineer who also has children and a wife of his own and is literally the color Purple.

And yes I'm included in this.

Songs hit tho ngl.

Anyways back to my dream
I believe it is very connected to my traumatic experience so uhh
I'mma try to not trauma dump on here cuz nobody wants that : >
And that won't make me feel or look good. 👍🏾

So! From what I remember I was probably at my aunt's house but it looked nothing liked it. Maybe a mix w my current home
but worse.

I'm walking to a short hallway inside the house and I see my little sister go into my older cousin's room.

She goes in and I get very sus about it.
My older cousin, he has hands on his belt. Like when guys put on their pants you know what I mean.

So yeah he's wearing blue pants and I think a white shirt. And prob sum pink maybe a sweater.

He comes out of his room and stops me from going in with my sister. He says that they're "just exercising".

I believe him cuz inside his room he has those exercising bysiciclas.

How the fuck do you spell bikecycle.

The bikes are a dark blue color w a hint of magenta. That's what I remember seeing. For some weird reason my sister was SUPER short. I didn't see her face. All I saw was her head/hairline.
That's how I knew it was her.
So yeah my cousin says they were just going to "exercise".

They both go in the room leaving me outside.
Making me very suspicious of them.
I don't know if they closed the door tho.
I then remember him coming out of his room still having his hands on his belt as if he just put his pants on.

Reading that creeps me out bcuz it's very obv what my dream illustrated him to look like.
And there's little hints of what happened back in the past BUT with a DIFFERENT person.
My cousin is 100% innocent!
my cousin IRL is definitely NOT like this he didn't do anything bad to me and my sister it was just a dream I had randomly.
Honest.

Next part of my dream (same dream btw)
I was outside.
The sky was bright pink and the grass was green. It looked rlly nice tbh.
It was basically just a floating land that was like long. Like a line shape but it wasn't thin. I'm assuming it was the afternoon cuz of the pink/pastel yellow sky.

That did not make sense but we're going with it

I see my little sister.
She's really close to me.
I also see my uncle.
Then I see my whole family.
But only my uncle's side. Which is my mom's side of the family.
So I'm assuming there was a family reunion for some reason or like a big party.
No idea what we were celebrating but it suddenly turned night and there's a lot of ppl there I've never met before.
They don't even look like my family they were just strangers.
Also in that part of the dream I was rlly short.
The random guy in my dream had to look down while sitting down on a chair.
He stops eating and looks at me weird.

Yeah that's all I remember from my dream.
Sadly and weirdly the interesting part of that dream is where my cousin is w me and my sister.
I wanna tell my mom about this but she's probably gonna tell my aunt and my cousin is going to find out.
And I really don't want to make him feel bad.
Even though it was just a weird dream and none of what happened was or is true.
She probably then gonna call some random person to pray for me.

again (-_- ;)

yeahh

Apparently I got religious parents and they're just like this.

Speaking of religious people.

I got another story to tell. 😏