I love you, Marga.
The statement keeps on ringing in my head. From the moment I shut the door, to the time that I woke up. It's been days since he said those words but I still haven't gotten over it. It's like a broken record in my head. It's not that I don't like it, I actually do. It's just that I feel like everything was going too fast. Then again, does it even matter? You can be with someone for two years and still not feel any love for them or you can be with someone for only a few weeks yet you love them with all of yourself. Love isn't a factor of time anyway. If you love them, you love them, right? There shouldn't be any more buts tagging along with it.
"Marga, are you okay?" Thomas smiled worriedly as he held my hand. We were walking around Shangri-La as we try to find a good place to eat dinner.
No one in my family knew about this, of course. I just made the excuse that I wanted to hangout at Shangri-La alone and to probably to a bit of shopping. I kind of feel bad that I have to keep whatever that's happening between Thomas and me. Ayokong matanggal siya sa basketball team dahil lang sa akin. If I actually think about it without letting my emotions rule over me, I wouldn't even be here with him. I would have avoided him in any way that I could just to erase my feelings.
"Marga?" He asked again.
"Huh?" I uttered in confusion. "S-Sorry," I sighed.
"May problema ba?"
Oo... Hindi mo kasi naaalala yung sinabi mo. I smiled. "It's nothing. I was just feeling a bit worried that my family will find out," I covered up. If only he remembered what he said, then maybe I wouldn't be so hesitant to say that I feel the same way. Every time I want to admit it, I keep on going back to the fact that he doesn't remember. Then I start to think that he only said that because he was drunk and under the influence of alcohol. What if he just blurted it out?
"Don't worry," Thomas smiled reassuringly. "I'll take responsibility for it. Besides, if Sir Danding does remove me from the team, I'll accept it. I told you before, marami pa namang ibang school na may basketball program pero isa lang naman ang Marga Cojuangco,"
"Maghanap na nga lang tayo ng kakainan!" I quickly walked ahead, pulling his hand, to hide that I was blushing madly. I could hear him laughing, which made me smile. Eventually, he jogged to match my pace before we slowed down to a relaxing pace.
We eventually found ourselves seated by a table for two at Cibo. I let Thomas choose what we would be eating because I was finding it hard to decide. Everything just seemed so yummy. Once he was done, he was smiling at me. I ended up smiling back too.
"May gusto ka pa bang puntahan after?" He asked.
"Wala naman. May naiisip ka ba?"
Thomas nodded. "Balik tayong La Salle," he suggested.
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"Seriously?" I chuckled. "Buti na lang pala at hindi ako nag-dress or skirt ngayon," I told him.
