It's been a while. I'm sorry :/. Not much has happened. Actually I take that back. So I had a lung infection and I'm ok now! I've gotten my grades back on track and they are the only good things.
I feel shit. I seriously just want to break down. It's hard to explain but remember Jackson ? Yep he's half in the picture. And we'll he went to a mini party last night with the other girl that I REALLY DONT LIKE. yep well they hooked up. He's meant to be coming over for a sleepover tomorrow and idk how that will go. I feel as if he will cancel which will make me cry. I don't know why but everything hurts at the moment. Every little thing anyone says or does makes me want to cry. But I don't know how to explain my feelings. I feel as if all of you are my only friends.
I'm just sick of feeling so shit about myself. And like he said no strings attached but I didn't think the night before he came over that he'd hookup with another chick like that just hurts. He ignored me too. Like not even kidding though the girl he got with, man he lowered his standards. Like I'm sorry but what the fuck ew. Ahaha
So pretty much 2 good things have happened whilst I have been happened AND A BUNCH OF BULLSHIT TOO. so pretty much don't even know how to see things positive any more. My life is crumbling in front of me and I know it seems like I'm over reacting but I mean, you guys have missed a lot. I just don't feel happy which is causing me to not be able to focus on anything I do.
I'm sorry that this was shit and that I have been gone for such a long time I just didn't have anything exciting. Not like this is exciting but I just needed someone to express my feelings to and I know that you guys won't judge me. I really love the support you guys give me it makes me smile to be able to know that someone understands me. Thankyou so much guys and j guess you'll see me next time something exciting happens. Ahahhaa no likely but I guess I'm out for now but not forever. I love you guys so much and thankyou again. Love you 💘
