well.... its been a while.
stuff has happened, I've lost friends gained new ones and i think I've found a new guy.
my life has become slightly interesting you could say..
i turned 15 2 months ago, and threw a big rager you could call it.
i want to update you on this guy. lets call him Luke.
Luke and i have been off and on for quite a while and no this isn't the wanker that was in the previous entries. Luke is something special. the first time i liked him was about October last year. he liked me and he was also talking to a few other girls. we flirted but there wasn't that spark that couples would need so we drifted. around about new years we were on and off again he liked me and i liked him and once again there was something missing. so we drifted again. it got harder and harder to detach from him. and its now April and we are on again. he liked me and then i started to gain feelings for him. we hang out all the the time and he just makes me so happy.
he is like a drug. this drug I'm addicted too. i cant stop thinking about him. when hes not with me i crave him. i crave his touch, his voice and his presence. people call us magnets because we are always coming back to each other. we get o attached to each other but the force isn't strong enough to pull us together fully, so we drift. we loose a bit of our magnetic force but never fully loose it. there's always something there. its starting to get harder to pull away. there more i get attached. he looses interest and finds another magnet and i have to detach myself whilst hes already moved on.
this boy drives me insane. i cant stop thinking about him. hes on my mind all of the time. when i see him i blush. when he messages me i blush. he makes me so god damn happy. he gives me a reason to wake up in the morning. he makes me smile. he makes me feel comfortable around him. i can be myself when I'm with him. when I'm with him its just me and him. all my problems float away. all the stress floats away. all my worries float away. its just me and him.
i cant stop thinking about him all the god damn time.
