RAPLH NYEAR HILL
22 , 7:04 pm
SUNDAY" turn the ac on in this bitch ." tez said while
unzipping his jacket
" niggas in my crib tryna tell me what to do ." i said laughing
" nah it is hot af in this ho " zy co-signed
" aye tho what we gone do about this mar shit ? nigga been gone for bout 5 months we still ain't spent " kado said as he hit his blunt
" really tho " zy said
we ain't had an opportunity to spin on these niggas yet
the block been hot n niggas been dodging n duckin .
" i mean we know it was jboo nem ." zy said
" but we don't got no plan " amir one of tez homeboys said
me and tez was sandbox brothers ..
" true " tez said
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we discussed our plans for bout an hour we decided we'd slide thursday.
" yo ralph why yeen tell me yo cousin was bad ?" amir said high asl
" who ?" i asked
" bro the shorty from the club ." he said
" ohh you tb monei , bro sfpwm ." i said getting serious
" boy chill yk my lil brudda onnat tf ." tez said getting defensive
" bro y'all not finna sit up here auguring abt my lil sister tf . " i said talking about r'monei
" tuh monei ain't even allat , no offense to you p ." kado said
" nigga what ?" tez said getting up
" why speaking on my brudda girl why he ain't here ?" he said
" nigga fuck yo brother " he said getting up too
tez sent a nasty punch to kado making him stumble back a little bit .
kado got right wiping the blood off his mouth sending a uppercut to tez's chin.
" yoo wtf " zy said getting up carrying kado out my house
this shit is wild .
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" yo bro wtf is up with you ." zy spat at me
" he gmfu ." i said
" spazzing out on niggas ain't ever been sum you did kado ." he said letting me go
" fuck that , why he speaking on her ?" i said
" you been on that stuff again huh ?" he said looking down i could tell he was disappointed
" that ain't yo girl no more k , you missed out it's time to let it go ." he said
" i don't wanna ." i said feeling clumsy
" bro cmon so i can get you home , i told you that shit not good for you ." he said
" mmcht , nigga ian no baby ." i said knowing he was only really trying to look out for me
" well fuck it kado , you wanna run around being dumb do that . " he spat walking back in the house slamming the door
" fuck y'all .. ion need y'all no way " my voice cracked as i slurred
i got in the car , heading to a gas station .
i got out leaving my car on cs i wish a nigga would steal my shit.
i walked to the back coolers to get a sprite
paying for my sprite i walked out hopping in my car .
before i pulled off i poured my promethazine in it .
i pulled off letting ts settle in and as i made it to the light i took a couple sips .
my mind was full of thoughts you wouldn't even think i would be thinking off .
picking my phone up i called kole .. it was about 8 sum .
she went to sleep earlier so i knew she would probably be sleep .
" hello " the line connected on the second ring .
" aye unlock the door ." i said as i made my way to her house
" ky'mier im not in the mode to deal with yo-"
" unlock the door im omw " i said before hanging up
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as i opened the door to kole's apartment i made my way to her room.
opening the door i took my coat off and then my cool gray's .
sliding down my jeans revealed my basketball shorts , and i took my shirt off leaving me in a wife beater .
i went over to my side of the bed getting comfortable under kole .
" mier you dranking that stuff again ?" she said as she squirmed around
" nah " i lied
" don't lie to me bro , i smell it on yo breath " she said hitting me in my chest
" bro gtb , i love you ." i said
" i love you too but ky'mier i want you to stop dranking that ." she said sounding worried
i didn't say nothing , i just rubbed her ass as i laid there staring at the ceiling .
these past couple months life had been kicking my ass .
i was drowning and nobody was here to save me.
i felt kole's light snores .
i didn't know if i loved this girl or not shit i don't even know if i knew what love is.
and
every night i went home i thought and thought about the same shit .what if my time is coming ?
what if i'm living the wrong way ?
what if i'm making a mistake ?
is it my time ?
am i happy ?...
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WANDER
Acakwander ; verb to move about without a fixed course , aim or goal . " im just living.." - r'monei