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RAPLH NYEAR HILL 22 , 7:04 pmSUNDAY

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RAPLH NYEAR HILL
22 , 7:04 pm
SUNDAY

" turn the ac on in this bitch ." tez said while

unzipping his jacket

" niggas in my crib tryna tell me what to do ." i said laughing

" nah it is hot af in this ho " zy co-signed

" aye tho what we gone do about this mar shit ? nigga been gone for bout 5 months we still ain't spent " kado said as he hit his blunt

" really tho " zy said

we ain't had an opportunity to spin on these niggas yet

the block been hot n niggas been dodging n duckin .

" i mean we know it was jboo nem ." zy said

" but we don't got no plan " amir one of tez homeboys said

me and tez was sandbox brothers ..

" true " tez said

-

we discussed our plans for bout an hour we decided we'd slide thursday.

" yo ralph why yeen tell me yo cousin was bad ?" amir said high asl

" who ?" i asked

" bro the shorty from the club ." he said

" ohh you tb monei , bro sfpwm ." i said getting serious

" boy chill yk my lil brudda onnat tf ." tez said getting defensive

" bro y'all not finna sit up here auguring abt my lil sister tf . " i said talking about r'monei

" tuh monei ain't even allat , no offense to you p ." kado said

" nigga what ?" tez said getting up

" why speaking on my brudda girl why he ain't here ?" he said

" nigga fuck yo brother " he said getting up too

tez sent a nasty punch to kado making him stumble back a little bit .

kado got right wiping the blood off his mouth sending a uppercut to tez's chin.  

" yoo wtf " zy said getting up carrying kado out my house

this shit is wild .

-

" yo bro wtf is up with you ." zy spat at me

" he gmfu ." i said

" spazzing out on niggas ain't ever been sum you did kado ." he said letting me go

" fuck that , why he speaking on her ?" i said

" you been on that stuff again huh ?" he said looking down i could tell he was disappointed

" that ain't yo girl no more k , you missed out it's time to let it go ." he said

" i don't wanna ." i said feeling clumsy

" bro cmon so i can get you home , i told you that shit not good for you ." he said

" mmcht , nigga ian no baby ." i said knowing he was only really trying to look out for me

" well fuck it kado , you wanna run around being dumb do that . " he spat walking back in the house slamming the door

" fuck y'all .. ion need y'all no way " my voice cracked as i slurred

i got in the car , heading to a gas station .

i got out leaving my car on cs i wish a nigga would steal my shit.

i walked to the back coolers to get a sprite

paying for my sprite i walked out hopping in my car .

before i pulled off i poured my promethazine in it .

i pulled off letting ts settle in and as i made it to the light i took a couple sips .

my mind was full of thoughts you wouldn't even think i would be thinking off .

picking my phone up i called kole .. it was about 8 sum .

she went to sleep earlier so i knew she would probably be sleep .

" hello " the line connected on the second ring .

" aye unlock the door ." i said as i made my way to her house

" ky'mier im not in the mode to deal with yo-"

" unlock the door im omw " i said before hanging up

-

as i opened the door to kole's apartment i made my way to her room.

opening the door i took my coat off and then my cool gray's .

sliding down my jeans revealed my basketball shorts , and i took my shirt off leaving me in a wife beater .

i went over to my side of the bed getting comfortable under kole .

" mier you dranking that stuff again ?" she said as she squirmed around

" nah " i lied

" don't lie to me bro , i smell it on yo breath " she said hitting me in my chest

" bro gtb , i love you ." i said

" i love you too but ky'mier i want you to stop dranking that ." she said sounding worried

i didn't say nothing , i just rubbed her ass as i laid there staring at the ceiling .

these past couple months life had been kicking my ass .

i was drowning and nobody was here to save me.

i felt kole's light snores .

i didn't know if i loved this girl or not shit i don't even know if i knew what love is.
and
every night i went home i thought and thought about the same shit .

what if my time is coming ?

what if i'm living the wrong way ?

what if i'm making a mistake ?

is it my time ?

am i happy ?

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