I hate you goshiki.

Ch.3 (end)

( Shirabu's pov)

I was in pain my stomach hadn't stopped hurting and it had just gotten worse. I couldn't do anything. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't get up, I couldn't get on my phone. After hours of this I finally mustered up some strength to get up and grab some Tylenol. I took two and grabbed the bottle to take with me upstairs. By the time I reached my bed I was in tears. My face was already stiff from the dried up tears. I had been crying this whole day and had a massive headache from how dehydrated I was. A few minutes had passed but the medicine had done nothing so I tried as hard as I could to fall asleep and I luckily succeeded. 

(Kawanishi's pov)

I was trembling. I had grown to know shirabu very well I know that he was struggling with depression and his family situation. I also know how much he loved volleyball I know he used it as an escape from his life. So quitting just because is definitely not why he left. When I found out he wasn't at his dorm I was about to have a panic attack. To be honest I had kinda caught feelings for him and I swore that if he died I would kill myself. I grabbed my phone to call shira. No answer. Called again. No answer. By that point I was falling apart on the floor. I kept calling and calling. I started texting him doing anything I could to get ahold of him. I ran out of my dorm still crying. I decided to go to his house since I had no clue where he could be. I was running. I passed a couple of people who tried to stop me to see whats wrong. One even being ushijima but nothing could stop me and nothing would stop me.

( shirabu's pov)

I was in so much pain I grabbed the bottle of Tylenol. I was downing one after the other. I couldn't stop, the pain was too much. I started to get light headed and dizzy but that didn't stop me i wanted it to go away. My vision was blurry my hearing was faint. My heart pounding was the only thing i could hear. My vision started to fade into black. All the memories started to play. I saw young goshiki he was playing tag with me. I was happy I actually felt happy. The next memory I was with my sister. She was smiling at me. I was also happy. The next memory I was with my family we were at the table eating dinner. We were laughing and smiling. My mom and my dad were happy. My sister was happy. I was happy. Then I saw goshiki " Ew shirabu your so gross!" I was crying. Then it showed my elementary the kids were all yelling at me and laughing calling me names and saying I was disgusting. Then the teachers were getting mad at me " Goshiki is an angel how dare you say such things." Next i was in junior high. I was walking down the hallways nobody even noticing me as if I were invisible. The next thing I saw was goshiki walking into the gym with a huge smiling. I could feel my chest tighten with anger. Then I saw ushijima " Shirabu if you can't answer me you can't be on the team." Next all I could hear and see was goshiki. Him smiling. Him laughing. Him being happy. Then I felt nothing. I saw nothing. I heard nothing.

(Goshiki's pov)

I was outside my building trying to comprehend what just happened. Then I saw taichi. He was running. Fast. I got up and ran after him. "Taichi wait! Slow down!" He wouldn't,t stop the closer i got i could realize he was crying. "Taichi, what's wrong!?" He kept running and running and running. No matter what i tried he wouldn't stop. It felt like forever till he stopped but he immediately ran inside a house. I knew it was dumb but i had to follow so i ran in after him.

( 3rd person pov)

Taichi ran up the stairs and stormed into the room. He saw shirabu on the floor. Pale. Lifeless. He collapsed next to the body holding it up. SHIRABU! SHIRABU ANSWER ME! PLEASE! ANSWER ME! SPEAK TO ME! Please answer shira....please just speak to me.......talk to me.....dont leave me... Goshiki had came in behind taichi had never even noticed that followed him nor did he care. He held shirabu begging him to talk to him. Begging him to say something. To wake up. To live. Goshiki picked up the bottle and immediately knew what had happened he started crying. The bottle had fallen to the floor exposing that it was empty. Taichi couldn't hear it though he could barely hear himself his vision was blurry. He held onto shiras body tight.

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