How are you gonna turn it all back

when I don't know if love is enough for us

After two months of working at his father's car shop he met a lot of people that were also complimenting him and his work which also helped to get the shop more customers. When he was working it helped him to forget about Day a bit but the hardest part was the night because he had time to think and if he were honest he never for once forgot about Day he was missing him but he couldn't forgive Day because of what he did to him.
After spending time apart from Day he had met a specialist and that told him that their relationship was not only because of love but because at the beginning and for about 5 months he was scared of disappointing Day and if he didn't do what Day wanted he got punished the doctor even told him that he had symptoms of Stockholm syndrome. After that appointment Itt had a lot to think about and he knew that their relationship wasn't normal like other couples.
But even though he knew that his doctor was right he never for once stopped loving Day but could Itt forgive Day for what he did to him. If he was being honest he didn't knew if love was enough for him to forgive Day but what he knew was he has to try to love himself and live a life were Day might not be part of where he can truly be just himself and be proud of himself. Where he didn't have to constantly ask for permission to go out and met new people.

He was doing great it has already been 3 weeks without Day and the shop had now a lot of costumers who always requested for Itt, he was truly happy because he had the feeling that he was appreciated for his work which made him think that he wanted to pursue a master degree at a University to lead the shop in the near future. So he called Gear who he also constantly meet in the last 3 weeks. Itt was truly happy to have a friend like Gear who helped him where ever he can.

Gear: hey Itt what's going on.

Itt: everything fine how about you and Night?

Gear: oh everything fine Night and I are very good, but I don't think that's the reason you wanted to call me is it.

Itt: as always you always notice, thats why I love you.

Gear: so what's going on, are you having a hard time?

Itt: actually I wanted to tell you and wanted to ask about your opinion of me pursuing a master degree.

Gear: i think it's a great idea I mean you always wanted to take over the car shop business and as I have seen the shop is doing great.

Itt: yeah that's true I am so happy that the shop is doing great but I am also very busy as more people want me to look at there cars.

Gear: isn't that great though I mean this way you don't have to think about him.

Itt: Gear it's okay to keep calling him by his name it's not like he isn't the brother of your boyfriend.

Gear: if he wasn't the brother of Night I would have killed him already. But are you okay, I mean truly.

Itt: yeah it's okay I mean I still miss him a lot and love him it hasn't changed one bit but I always think about if the love we have for each other is enough to keep going on with our relationship. I mean through the 3 year I was in the relationship with Day I couldn't do what I wanted to do and always had to ask for permission and if he didn't like it I had to either obey him or he would punish me.

Gear: so now you want to pursue your master degree. Man I never thought my stupid friend would go to university one day. But did you already talk to your father about it. I think he would be truly happy with your decision.

Itt: hey I am not stupid and no I haven't talked with my father yet I wanted to ask about your opinion first.

Gear: I think it's a great idea and if it makes your happy than I think you should definitely do it.

Itt: thanks gear I mean it I am really happy to have you as a friend. Okay bye.

Gear: bye and I also love you as a friend.

But neither of them knew that Day was listening to them. Day though "so you want to go to college?" 

Itt didn't know that day had always watched him from afar to keep potential interest in Itt as small as possible.

When he heard that Itt missed him and loved him he was happy but when he heard itt saying that he didn't knew if the love they have for each other is enough for him to be in a relationship with Day he knew that he had to change himself but he didn't knew how to do that. But one thing was for sure he had to go to the same college as itt without itt knowing itt otherwise he was sure that others would take a liking to itt and this is something that he couldn't risk.

Next day

Itt went to his father to talk about his decision to pursue a master degree and when his father heard that he was really happy and proud of itt to make that decision.

Father: Oh Itt I am so happy to hear that. Seems like I can retire earlier that I thought. But did you already decide in which university you want to go to.

Itt: yes I did it's in Bangkok wo it's not that far from hear. I habe already talked with the school and they said the new semester starts in 1 month so until then I will still help you at the shop as best as I can but after that I think you have to look for others to do my work I mean I could still work at the weekend.

Father: no you don't have to I don't want to give you more stress.

Itt: dad I would be glad to help out since it really helped me the last month.

Father: okay then it's decided. But tell me if it gets to much.

Itt: yeah I will do that.

Day of the attrence ceremony

Itt was driving his car to the University of Bangkok (honestly i don't even know if the university even exists but I will just use that name).

After he arrived he met a group of  5 people who seem like to be close. There were 2 girls and three guys. Itt noticed right away that the guy called tom was  checking him out and keeped his eyes on him. The group then invited Itt to go with them and who was Itt to say no. So they went together to the meet up with the seniors.

Itt likes the seniors they were really nice and answered all the questions and then it was time for an interaction so they could get closer to there classmates so they played a game where they had to stand in two circles where the one groups would move and they would then introduce themselves to the other people and say what they are doing and what there hobbies are. Itt was really having fun and found many nice people who also invited him to go meet after the classes to drink together. He was also invited in a line group. He was really happy that it was going really well for him.

But Itt constantly noticed how Tom was checking him out which creeped him out a little bit so he went to him and asked him because he was a curious person.

Itt: hey Tom I wanted to ask you something.

Tom: oh hey Itt what do you want to ask?

Itt: I just wanted to ask if I have something on me because I noticed that you were looking at me the whole time and to be honest it makes me uneasy.

Tom: oh (he blushed) so you noticed.
Tom was looking slightly away and with that he was taking a deep breath and said " I like you" and looked at the ground. I hope I didn't scare you or disgust you now.

Itt didn't knew what to say.

Itt: thanks for liking me and don't worry I don't think it's disgusting but I can't like you back since I already love someone else but it's complicated right now so we can be friends if you want to.

Tom: oh that's great and yes friends would be great.

With that they took there seperated ways without knowing that someone was keeping there eyes on them who looked really dark.

Day was thinking to himself. "How dare you Tom I am not gonna let it happen that you are to close to Itt because he is mind". With that day was again going to follow itt but what he didn't expect was that itt was walking right to him and he looked furious.

To be continued