Don't Apologize

Is it the end?

The night ended with all of us parting ways. Erin's parents refused us from spending the night there so we got a hotel. Laying on the bed, I was about to turn off the lamp; ready to go to sleep, when Erin started to speak, "Joella, i think we should talk". "Yeah? sure!" I responded as I sat up looking at her concerned. "I think we should stop seeing each other" she said. I took a pause before saying "why?", "Joella this isn't going to work. I'm sorry I led you on, but I don't want you falling for me". "I FELL FOR YOU THE DAY YOU RAN ME OVER. LITERALLY FELL. HOW CAN YOU DO THIS",
"you aren't thinking about me joella, my parents could KICK ME OUT, DONT YOU CARE ABOUT ME?" she said. CARE ABOUT HER? didn't she literally just tell me to basically not have any feelings for her? ANY AT ALL. "Erin, is this what YOU really want", "i don't know, yeah it is actually. This isn't working, we're going back and forth". WHAT WAS SHE TALKING ABOUT? EVERYTHING HAD BEEN PERFECT FOR THE WHOLE SPAN IVE KNOWN HER. "I was in love with you" I spoke, and I started to slowly form tears, gliding down my cheek. "Well don't be. Please joella, I can't deal with you" she finally blurted. My jaw wide open, and my cheeks glistening with tears. I didn't respond. I just packed my bags and walked out. No words came out of her mouth as I stepped out, but I guess that's what she was implying all along. I'm so stupid for not getting the hints before, and I'm so confused how all this happened but it did. After all, everything has to come to an end. I went back to new york.