Skinny (on hold)

Thinking

Tw warning: Eating disorder, self harm, Suicidal thoughts
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Genya POV:
"Mui it's time to wake up" i said. "I'm not going to school today" he responded. "What?" I demanded, "I think I have strep throat" he said. I knew it was a lie, but maybe he needs time alone after yesterday night. Should I apologize? Was what I did wrong? "Okay, I'm gonna get going, I'll grab your homework okay?" "Okay thanks" he said. After I got to class, those thoughts haunted me. Was it wrong? Did I make it worse? Was I too demanding? Was I too aggressive? Does he not trust me anymore? This was making me nervous. After this I went back to paying attention to class. After every class i gathered all of Muichiro's homework as well. Once it got to lunch time, i joined all my friends. "Hello Genya!" Tanjiro greeted, "Where is Muichiro?" "He just feels sick today" i responded. Then I remembered, wait doesn't Tanjiro's younger sibling, Hanako, have a eating disorder? Should
I ask him about it? "Hey Tanjiro, can I meet up with you after school?" I asked. "Sur-" he said as he was cut off by Inosuke. "HEY I WANNA GO TO, YOU ARE YOU IGNORING ME TEMYA, AND KAMABOKO?!" "It's okay Inosuke, would you like to hang out tomorrow?" Tanjiro offered kindly.
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the bell rang. "Okay i have to go! Meet me at the cafe near by at 3:30 okay?" Called Tanjiro as he walk away. "Sounds good! Thanks!" I said as I went to my next class.
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After that interaction I was thinking to myself, would Muichiro be okay with me sharing this information? But I'll be helping him, right? So it is okay. The day went on brutally slow, but eventually I made it to my last class. I couldn't pay attention. Muichiro was concerning me so much! He was just skin and bones!
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Muichiro POV:
I woke up at around 1 pm. The first thing I felt as I got up was the pain in my arms. "Oh, right." I said out loud. I felt horrible doing that. I remember I forgot about my recently prescribed anti-depressants,   I couldn't give a fuck. I don't care. I fell back asleep. In my dream, I felt uneasy, angry, depressed, and tired. I walked closer and closer to a rope on my drawer. I tied it to the branch outside my childhood home. I slowly wrapped it around my neck, then went limp. I could feel myself getting weaker and weaker, as I felt the blood flow slow towards my brain. At once everything went black. I woke up immediately. I wanted to.. I wanted to fulfill my dream. It just felt so.. right. I knew I had no rope, so I went to genya's side of the dorm, I eventually found some of his rope, which I assumed was for fishing. I prepared everything. I wrapped it around my neck and.....

And.....

And.. I snapped back to my senses. I shouldn't. Especially for now there are people I care about. I know if I did that, they probably wouldn't care, but the thought of leaving them made me so sad. I instead walked into the bathroom and added 6 new cuts on my thighs.
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Genya POV:
Finally.. it's 3:15. The teacher dismissed us, and I made my way towards the cafe. Once I got there, I saw Tanjiro already sitting at the table. I walked over and sat down next to Tanjiro. "So what would you like to talk to me about?" He said cheerfully.
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Genya: you know your little sister Hanako?
Tanjiro: Of course! She is my sister after all.
Genya: ... and her eating disorder?
Tanjiro's look darkened, but maintained a smile
Tanjiro: mhm
Genya: Is it okay if I ask about it?
Tanjiro: why would you need to know such things? If you explain why you need to know, maybe I'll allow you to.
Genya: Well.. uh. I think Muichiro has an eating disorder.
Tanjiro's gazed softened
Tanjiro: what makes you say that?
Genya: He barely eats, basically starves himself, and is so incredibly skinny that it can't be healthy
Tanjiro: that sounds like he may be suffering from Anorexia Nervosa.
Genya: can you explain what this means, and how I can help?
Tanjiro: Anorexia Nervosa is a highly lethal mental disorder manifested by marked food restrictions, resulting in a very thin body habitus, an abnormal focus on body image and a host of medical complications which progress as the malnutrition worsens.
Genya: Oh, and how can I help him overcome this?
Tanjiro: Just be supportive. Maybe try to get him into therapy. He will most likely be opposed, but it will most likely help him a lot. Also try to keep an eye on his weight gain/loss. Don't be aggressive to make him eat food. Be gentle but firm. It's okay if he can't eat the whole thing. Just try to make him eat as much as he can, then slowly make him add more and more food to his plate.
Genya: Tanjiro, thank you so much. You are an life saver!
Tanjiro: No Problem. Would you like me to send him some helpful links?
Genya: sure.
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Muichiro POV:
I was now laying in my bed. Simply thinking. Then I heard my phone ding I picked it up and saw Tanjiro texted me. I look at what he sent
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                              Tanjiro😃
-Hey Mui! In case you ever need this..
This is the eating disorder hotline! It is
called "The National Eating Disorders Association"
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I just sat there in shock. How? How did he know? Then it hit me. What if Genya told him? Genya hasn't been here, even though school ended? Are they talking about me? I continued to think of this, panicking, while warm tears slipped out of my eyes. 5 minutes later Genya walked through the door. I ran I to him, and continuously punched his chest. "How could he" I thought in my head. "How could he!" I could tell Genya was confused, but I didn't care. "How could you!" I yelled as loud as my quiet voice could go. "What?" He softly said. I should him the text message. "How could you force me to tell you something so sensitive, then share it to other people?! I hate you!! I fucking hate you!" I screamed at him. I don't even care that our neighbors could hear us. Genya slowly caught my hands and hugged me. I grabbed my hands out of his grip, then slapped him across the face. "Don't pretend like you care about me now" I screamed.
I ran out of the dorm, and followed wherever my legs took me. I ended up sitting in an empty field. alone. "How could I think they cared about me" I muttered to myself. I sat there for a bout an hour, before I made my way back home.
Genya POV:
Oh god where is he! I knew I shouldn't have done that! He for sure doesn't trust me anymore! He must think I hate him! He doesn't know how much I care about him! He doesn't know how much I love him!