The Summoning ~Sleep Token FF~

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            ❌ Please do not read if you have triggers❌
   ❌ If you can not handle the below please only read        the first four paragraphs ❌
      
           ❌ Mentions; rape (no detail), self-harm, suicide, and drugs❌

❌ Reader Discretion is advised ❌

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After I felt like I had been running forever, I stopped trying to catch my breath. I felt like running in circles, like a cat trapped in a maze. With a defeated sigh, I sat on the wet forest floor. Pulling my knees to my chest, I sat my head on them, looking around and seeing nothing but black. "Not ideal, but I guess this will have to do until sunrise," I said, scooting closer to the tree behind me.

Keeping the umbrella over my head, I watched the little rain drip from the top down to my foot. I shut my eyes, trying to drift off to sleep, but I knew it would not be easy. I tried thinking of sheep and cows but couldn't fall asleep. Letting out a soft sigh, I stood up, trying to adjust my eyes to the darkness lurking before me.

I started walking towards nothing, hoping to find something decent to sleep in. There was no light at all; I had limited vision. "Why do I have to be such a nice person?" I questioned myself, hitting the side of my head. Finally giving up, I walked to a tree sitting down beside it.

"There is nothing else I can do but make myself go to sleep," I hummed softly, lying against the wet tree bark. I closed my eyes, yawning softly then falling into a deep sleep. I fell back into the endless cycle of the nightmare on loop.

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I walked through the hallway of the foster home. I heard girls laughing and having a good time in the other rooms. I sighed, knowing that could never be me; I couldn't make friends no matter how hard I tried. Everyone thought I was a freak. I walked into my room and straight to my bed.

I lay down with my back facing the door. Around this time, the male nurses would take turns entering my room, doing horrible things, and trying to act like I was asleep so I wasn't forced to do something to them. I had no power to tell them to stop; anyone I tried to tell would brush me off, telling me if I didn't want it, then I could ask them to stop.

Cuts laced my arms and legs; I would add more every night in hopes they would find it ugly; some thought that and stopped coming in. But others didn't care about it and continued to do things. All of them were married...had kids my age...But yet continued to screw me to get their rocks off.

I heard the door creek open and then shut quickly after. The click of the door locking rang through my ears, and my body visibly tensed up even though I was 'asleep.' Hearing footsteps get closer; a tear fell down my cheek. 'Aw, you thought sleeping would stop me?' he said quietly, grabbing me roughly.

Zoning out, hoping things would end soon, I lay there limp wanting to disappear into the bed below me. Once he was finished, he left me there with nothing on. I cried silently, sitting up and walking over to the small closet. I grabbed clean clothes putting them on. 'Why me?' I questioned through quiet sods.

I approached the side table and grabbed a pill bottle and a knife. Turning back to the closet, I walked inside. Shutting the door behind me, I shakily opened the bottle, turned it up to my lips, and swallowed as many as I could with no water. Once I couldn't anymore, I held the knife to my skin and slit my wrist the long way to make it as quick as possible.

My vision became blurry as I saw a white mask in front of me, reaching out to catch me. A sad smile crawled onto my lips. 'I feel at peace,' I whispered before passing out.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw a bright light shining on my face. Squinting, trying to adjust to the brightness, I took a look around. Cords, tubes, and monitors lined the bedside. Low beeps were heard as I stared at the sight before me.

I heard footsteps coming closer to the bed and then a loud thud. 'Doctor! She's awake!' a loud voice said before running to my side. 'Oh, hun, we were worried you wouldn't make it. I am Nurse Shelly; I will be helping you, okay? Do you know where you are?' I scanned the room with my eyes nodding slightly.

'Good, do you know who you are?' staring up at the ceiling, I tried remembering. Slowly, as more doctors and nurses filled the room, I nodded while holding my hand up, pointing to the lady I knew as Shelly. 'Doctor, she remembers who she is and knows where she is,' she said to the male beside her. A smile formed on his lips as he watched me. 'Help her get everything off; I will be back to talk with her' a simple nod was seen as she rushed over to me.

Everything is a blur from there. I don't remember much, so everything goes black after this and replays the same thing repeatedly.

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