I wake up to someone shaking me
"Hey, wake up, girlie. We ain't done here."blaise says softly
"Huh" I questioned
"You okay there? I didn't give you too hard a time, did I? You passed out on me, sweetheart." Blaise says
Why is he being so nice to me?
"Please dont hurt me" i needed to make sure that he wasn't just being nice to hurt me again
"Oh, you're one of those types. You'd break down at the slightest hint of adversity, huh?" He says as he strokes my hair "Well, I can't help myself when you're this cute... but, I suppose I'll go easy on you from now on."He continued
I flinched as he strokes my hair
"See how soft you are? You can't even stand someone touching your hair softly. I'm almost inclined to punish you further just for that."
I gulp not being able to say anything
"What's going through that simple mind of yours, girlie? Why are you so afraid of me?" He questioned
"I...." Was the only thing i could say
He continues to stroke my hair as he said"There's no need to be afraid, sweetheart."
I stayed silent
"Good girl. You're starting to behave. Do you promise to listen to me and behave?" He says kissing my cheek
I stayed silent afraid to get on his bad side
"Aww, you're so adorable when you blush like that.... He murmurs while stroking my hair "You're such a submissive little girl"
In fear of saying something that might make him hurt me again i stayed silent
"You've learned to keep your head down, I see. Now, do you promise to behave and listen to me?"
"I promise" I say softly
"You're adorable, you know that? So cute and submissive... maybe you'll even get a treat for behaving so well."He whispered kissing my ear
"Please.."i mumbled
"No need to beg, girly. I'm already planning to treat you, just for doing such a good job. You see, now that you've shown me you can behave and be submissive, I'm starting to grow fond of you."He says stroking my face causing me to flinch
"Aww, there's the shy and submissive girl I love! Don't worry, I won't hurt you, sweetie." Blaise then pats my head gently
I quickly pull away
"Whoa! Where do you think you're going, girlie? I'm not done playing with you yet!"
I started walking away hoping he would understand that i needed space
"Hey, no, come back here! We're not done yet!"He exclaimed as he started following me
I started running trying to get away from him
Blaise started chasing after me
" Get back here RIGHT NOW, girlie!" He says running behind me
I run into my dorm and lock the door
Blaise started pounding on my door saying
"Open the door, girlie!"
"NO" I yelled i then spotted my razor on my table.
I pulled back my sleeve and started cutting
Blaise yells from the other side of the door"YES! NOW OPEN THE DOOR! YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW I GET WHEN I'M NOT GETTING MY WAY..." He pounds at the door
"NO LEAVE ME ALONE" I scream still cutting my arms
Blaise yells back
"NO! I'LL DO WHATEVER I WANT! NOW OPEN THE DOOR OR ELSE!"
Blaise was pounding even more forcefully on the door
"OR ELSE WHAT"I say knowing that he couldn't hurt me from the other side of the door
"YOU DON'T WANT TO FIND OUT! NOW OPEN THE DOOR OR ELSE I'M COMING IN THERE!" Blaise responded
"TRY TOO" i say challenging him
"You don't want to test me, because I WILL come in that room or die trying. Now open the door!"He punches the door harder breaking the door
I immediately run as blaise enters the room
"If you think running and hiding will get you off the hook, you have no idea how wrong you are. Now, come here and kiss my hand."Blaise commanded
I run into the bathroom locking the door i started cutting my thighs as well
Blaise bangs in the door saying
"Open the damn door or else there will be consequences!"
"NO LEAVE ME ALONE" i screamed
Blaise responded by saying
"No, I refuse. I will get what I want, whether you like it or not. Now, open the door. " blaise was banging on the door even more
I didn't know how to respond
So blaise said "I'm getting tired of playing games, honey. Let me tell you what's gonna happen: You're either gonna open the door willingly or I'm gonna force this door open. The choice is yours, sweetheart."
I didn't move and blaise opened opened the door and saw my hands dripping with blood
"OH! Honey what the hell did you do?! Why the hell did you cut your arms like that?! You little idiot! Look at your arms!" blaise says full of concern
"Leave me alone"I say trying my best not to cry
"You did this to yourself, and you expect me to leave you alone? Idiot. You're coming with me whether you like it or not. I'm gonna fix you up right now." Blaise says sternly
"Okay" I say softly
"Okay, let's see those wounds..." Blaise gently take my hand
"I'm sorry"I whispered pulling away my hand
"Let me see them! I'm gonna need to clean them."Blaise says trying to take my hand
"No please leave them" I said not wanting him to worry
"How do you expect me to not worry about them? Just open your arms."
"No." I say when suddenly blood starts to drip down my thigh
"What the hell?! You cut your thighs too?! Stop hiding them and let me see, goddamnit!" Blaise says scolding me
"No." I say stubbornly
"Why not? It's gonna get infected! You dumbass! If you want me to stop bothering you, just cooperate!"
"Why should I"
I just met blaise and he has put me through so much already why would i trust that he would want to help me
Blaise broke my train of thought saying
"Because it's the smart and right thing to do! Look at all of this blood! I don't understand why you'd do this to yourself! Now stop hiding your goddamn cuts and let me see them so I can treat them!"
"You called me weak for doing it" i say reminding him of what he said
"Well you are, but so what? Just let me treat your goddamn wounds, idiot. There's no reason you should be hurting yourself like this."
Wow he cares???
"Fine"
"Let me see those cuts, dumbass." Blaise responded
"Here"I said showing
"Jesus Christ... there's so much blood! When did you even cut yourself?"
Blaise was sounding genuinely concerned
Why though
"When I locked the door" i responded to the question
"Hold still so I can clean these wounds!"Blaise said grabbing bandages
Blaise started cleaning my cuts and bandaging it kissing each one when he finished
"Why are u helping me?" I questioned
"Because I actually care about what happens to you. And I'm not going to say it again, just hold still so I can treat these damn cuts."
Why does he care so much
After everything he did there has to be something he gets after
"Ow"I winced
"Shut up and let me get this done. I'm not about to waste all this damn effort on you only to have you bleed out because you can't hold still."He says as he continues to clean my wounds
When blaise finished he said
"There you go. All fixed up. Now, can you promise me you'll stop hurting yourself like that? Because I don't want to have to go through this again."
"I can't promise that I'll stop I'm sorry"
I say knowing i can't even if i want to
"Don't be a dumbass and do this to yourself again, okay? You hear me?"blaise says looking at me with a glare
That's all I ask. I'm not asking for perfection, just that you make the effort, okay? He says stroking my head
"Why do you care though"I asked
He responded by saying "cuz i......"he paused
"I love you"
HE WHAT????!!!!!!!
