Roomates (YB Uni AU)

14 The CD

Katie's POV
We were once again laid on our makeshift floor bed. Watching a film on the TV. We'd shoved the takeaway boxes to the side, not bothering to walk the two seconds to the bin. We were comfy. We didn't care. I closed my eyes and rolled over onto my side, happy to sleep there
"Kit?"
"What?" I groaned
"You going to sleep?" I nodded
"Why?" I teased, knowing he wasn't really arsed
"Cus I'm really tired. But didn't want to go to sleep and leave ya hanging."
"Just go sleep. I don't mind." He rolled onto his side, reaching for the remote between us "Ohh. You need the TV off to sleep properly? Why didn't you say I don't mind it being quiet." He turned the TV off and smiled as he laid down beside me
"Thanks for letting me know. Just felt bad if you were watching it." I moved over a bit, cuddling up to him. Well, more so laying with my head touching his chest
"Nope. Just here to be with you." He gently stroked my cheek, only making me more tired
"You wanna stay right there?" I nodded softly
"Please."
"Okay kit. Stay right there." I smiled, nudging my head up against him. He seemed to notice what I wanted and he held me softly "love, is everything okay now?"
"With you." I mumbled, partly because I was tired but partly because I was too shy in the moment to say it louder
"Yeah. With me." He sighed and just held me there
"Not bothering you am I?"
"Not one bit sweetheart. Just want to know if everything is okay?" I rolled my eyes and turned over, wanting him so badly to drop it even if he was being nice. He waited for a bit to see if I was going to answer him, but he knew I wasn't. He pulled himself closer to me, making me the little spoon and holding me close to him again. I didn't mind, the man could practically read me like a book. He knew that's what I wanted, him holding me close, it just took him a while to figure out that was all I wanted.
"Don't deserve you." I mumbled
"Yeah you do. Deserve the world." He let out a small contented sigh, making me melt right there "With me?" He whispered softly
"With you." I said, mimicking what I had said earlier, capable of more but humouring him nonetheless
"Get some sleep bubs. Surprise for you tomorrow." He sat up just briefly, only to kiss my cheek before he laid back down "Night."
"Night dom...love you." He chuckled softly
"Love you too kit. With my whole heart." I wriggled out of his grip and turned back around to face him
"That's so cute." He rolled his eyes at me and his face flushed red "No you're getting all embarrassed. Don't be. That's so fucking cute." He smiled and I settled in my new position, concluding that's most likely where I'd fall asleep "Thanks for everything dom." I said as I closed my eyes
"You're very welcome sweetheart."

I woke up first, dom still sound asleep next to me. But I didn't mind, he looked so peaceful and relaxed, his mouth slightly open as he snored softly. Everything about him was soft. He'd like to pretend he wasn't a soft arse all the time, but he was. It didn't slip my mind how surreal it felt to be next to him, especially after following him and his career for so long. He was right there next to me.
"Mornin'." He smiled but didn't open his eyes, almost as if he could feel me looking at him
"Mornin'." I repeated back to him "Thanks, for last night."
"Don't worry about it. I'm always here for you." He opened his eyes "We do actually have to do this uni thing yknow?"
"Unfortunately. But today we don't actually have anything on. He cancelled remember?"
"Fuck. I forgot. I have something for you." He got up off the floor, making me sad despite him coming straight back. He was sat up now, his back rested against the sofa now bare of its cushions "Here." He handed me something, a cd case to be more specific "it's all the unreleased shit. Well, not all, because the clips aren't on there. But all the unreleased final songs are on there."
"Why are you handing me this?"
"Because...because..." I sat up to match him
"You don't have to say."
"No. I want to. I want to give it to you because when everything went to shit I burned it all onto a cd in hopes I'd get to give it to one of you guys. And then I wrote in my note that it was never to be shared, only given to one person." I took a moment to process what he had said. I knew the note he was talking about. I didn't want to, but I did "I'm doing okay now though, really." I stared at the plain cd in my hand, moving the case around almost inspecting it even though there was nothing to inspect "Kit-"
"It's beautiful." I looked up at him and he looked so scared of what I was going to say "Im gonna treasure this for the rest of my life."
"Thank you" was all he could whisper. I smiled and waited as he tried to form more words, but they simply did not come
"Hey, how about we play it now?"
"Really?"
"Yes of course, I really want to hear what you have made"
"Yeah...yeah of course we can play it now!"

I watched as he wandered around the kitchen, making us something to eat whilst dancing along to his own music. It felt relaxing, like what he had truly intended for this music to be was coming to life right before my eyes. It almost made me laugh how different it felt to be right there with him. When I was younger I'd have convinced myself I'd fall madly in love with him when we met. But it felt so different. Like I could barely my heart and soul to him and it wouldn't bother him one bit. It always felt that way through his words and his music. I always adores the relationship he and us had. I guess that's why it broke my heart for it all to fall apart. I guess I missed it too. Maybe if things went diff-
"Hello" I jumped up "you looked very deep in thought, what's bothering ya?" He walked around to the front of the couch, waiting for me to turn around and get comfy before passing me a plate "crumpets. Felt very British today" he chuckled to himself and say down beside me, taking a bite like he'd never been fed before in his life
"Do you ever wish you had it all back?" I asked, taking him by surprise as he just went silent "I'm sorry i-"
"Everyday." He interrupted "every fucking day I want it back kit. But it went to shit and I can't make that better"
"But you can! You made it better for me." He got up off the couch "Dom sit down"
"I'm going to my room."
"I'm sorry sit down" he shook his head, walking away "Dom please"
"No. This was supposed to be a beautiful moment. Healing and all that shit. But you've ruined it." He walked back to his room and slammed the door, leaving me alone to eat my crumpets. I didn't stop the music though, I just let it play. And then it got to the last one. The one wed all begged him to release. And it did what it always did. Made me sob. Maybe it was a good thing he never released the lonely and the broken. But it made it all the more heartbreaking to listen to it now. I set my plate down on the table, no longer hungry, and find my phone where it had been carelessly placed the night before. It only had a bit of battery left. But I knew exactly who to call. I found toms number and just as a pressed his contact
"Fuck!" I cursed, quite loudly to be fair, probably loud enough for Dom to hear over the music. I slammed my phone on the counter, done with it "well I guess I'll play this again then?" I replayed the cd, taking refuge in the comfy sofa and curling myself up as small as possible on it "at least the musics changed" I mumbled to myself "I might not have, but the music has"