Waking up in the mornings is always a struggle for me. Always has been.
Just the thought of leaving my bed in general puts me in a state of anxiety and that's without thinking about anything else that's gonna happen that day.
But I get up anyways because I have to get to school.
I get up brush my teeth and my hair, chuck some clothes on and do my makeup.
I don't do much for makeup. A little concealer, blush, mascara and clear lip gloss.
For my hair I just stick it into a low ponytail then stick a claw clip in it to make it look for volumed.
After I finish getting ready I leave for school, skipping breakfast. I don't get how it's the best meal of the day having breakfast just makes me feel worse.
I stick my earphones in and walk to school blasting some metal playlist I found on spotify.
When I get to school I do my usual. Go to homeroom, go to a few classes and then skip the rest.
Nothing exciting ever happens at school. Why should it I have no friends to make things interesting.
Well I do have one friend. Ruby.
Rubys not exactly the smartest but it gets her by. She most of the time just convinces her mum to let her go home cause she's 'sick' it's not like she in any of my classes anyway. Just leaves me say alone at break and lunches.
She's not exactly popular but she's got more friends then me. In real life anyway. Shes not a social person though.
I can usually catch a good conversation with someone if I try. But I don't. Simple. It's kind of hard trying to find friends the 3rd year into high school. Everyone's already got their groups of people.
I wish it was like one of those American movies where the rlly unpopular kid manages to get pretty and get loads of friends and be apart of the popular kids.
That's never gonna happen though.
