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quiet kid

quick writers note i really don't know how to start this so i'm very sorry if it sucks ass i'm kinda just throwing y'all in so enjoy!

oliver was a quiet kid.. sorta, if he was with his friends he would say anything that came to his mind and would yell and scream all he wanted. when he was alone or with people he didn't know? that was another story. oliver hated social situations, he would tend to get overwhelmed and incredibly anxious. oliver also had anger issues and could never sleep at night. his anger issues weren't exactly rational he couldn't even understand them himself. he hated that he couldn't be better. sometimes he would punish himself for it. he would get pissed off for little things like someone saying something in a way he didn't like or people not taking care of themself/self sabotage. he was a major hypocrite. another weird thing with his anger issues is he LOVED to argue but after it was over he wanted sob and hurt himself. to say the least he was pretty fragile. he never showed it though, or well he tried to never show it. he didn't want people to worry but at the same time he knew he wanted them to help. his friend weren't exactly mentally stable either. they tried to help each other but oliver sucked at helping. his advice was always shit and because of his anger issues he sometimes made it worse. he couldn't help it but he knew that wasn't an excuse. oliver wanted to be nice, it made him feel better. but he just couldn't, his mind wouldn't let him. he recently lost a lot of friends, his main friend group. his entire life he always had so many friends so when senior year hit and he lost a lot of them he wasn't really sure what to do.  he kinda became "emo" but after a few months tried to change himself to fit in after pretty bad bullying. luckily nothing physical happened but he would have his food stolen, called slurs, told to kill himself, and that's not even all of it. it happened the whole year, paused for a few weeks and then it'd start back up. there was also just blatant harassment. he would get food thrown at him, dumped into his seat, his name made fun of. it really took a toll on him. it started in the beginning of senior year. he had a great friend group, an amazing partner, confident in his style and body. he could have never imagined being bullied. it was the first time in his life that he had been bullied. he had always had a lot of friends and was a pretty good kid overall. he really enjoyed his life. but later he got into a really deep depressive state and he didn't wanna live anymore. oliver started self harm and still struggles with it. he hated himself and he wanted to just give up. luckily he didn't but sometimes he still thinks it would've been better. he's definitely getting better and he's proud of himself for it but recently his mental health has been dropping as his insecurities have increased.