Just Kiss Me - Tom and Bill Kaulitz

My fault

"Why did it take you so long?" Vic asked us right away as we went down to breakfast.

Tom and I looked at each other, then I made up an excuse. "Sorry, I just woke up." I said, then saw that Tom didn't know what to come up with, so I helped him. "Tom instead stayed in the bathroom. Stomach ache." Inside I had burst out laughing, but out I couldn't because Tom was looking at me terribly. We sat down at the table, and Bill had his eyes on me. I felt terrible, and the thing was, my feelings for him hadn't changed. Despite everything, however, I had slept with his brother anyway. We finished breakfast, then went back to our room to get our bags and left the hotel, where the bus was already waiting for us.

I got on it last, and I saw that there was an empty seat next to Bill, so I sat with him. I turned to him and smiled at him, he didn't even look at me and got up to go and stand next to Gustav. I didn't understand why. Vic was sitting next to George, so I had to sit next to Tom. He smiled as soon as he saw me next to him, and came towards me to kiss me. I walked away immediately. "What the fuck are you doing" I whispered, meanwhile we had left.

"I can't see your lips without putting mine on them."

I was melting. I too wanted to kiss him. "Not that I mind, but we agreed not to tell the others this morning, and if they find out, we're screwed." I whispered to him by putting my finger in front of his mouth, and making him back away. He rolled his eyes.

We'd been gone for a while already, and Tom kept massaging my inner thigh. Luckily we were seated at the front so nobody saw us. I was about to die, because the more he massaged me, the more aroused I got. He came close to my ear, and began to whisper something. "How about we go to the bathroom?" he told me. "Stupid, we can't show ourselves going there together." He huffed and took his hand off my leg.

"I don't know if I'll last much longer without even kissing you." I smiled and took his hand, crossing my fingers in his.

"You've been waiting all this time, you can wait a few hours." He leaned back to my ear. "Now that you're mine, I won't have to wait any longer..."My heart was pounding. "...But this time I will make an effort." He said completing the sentence. I hoped he still insisted. Throughout the trip we did nothing but laugh, listen to music and hold hands. We held hands the whole time, only once I broke away to go to the bathroom, and he looked at me in shock. For the rest of the trip he didn't hold my hand again, what a touchy boy... And fucking sexy too.

We arrived at the hotel after almost seven hours of travel, it was four in the afternoon so we all decided to rest in our room until six, because then we would have to go soundcheck for the concert. I couldn't understand how they managed to do in concert after all those hours of travel. Anyway, as soon as we got to the room, I put my suitcase on the bed, picked up the phone and texted Tom to join me in the bathroom. By now everyone was in their rooms so no one would see us. When he entered, he immediately locked the door, took me in his arms and began to kiss me passionately. Even though I too wanted to continue, I was forced to leave him because I had called him to the bathroom to talk about something very important.

"Now what is it?" he asked nervously. "Look, we need to talk." He made a frown. "I... I still have feelings for Bill." He looked at me, then walked over to me, putting his hands around my hips, and smiled. "Obviously you still have feelings for him, he is the same as me." I laughed. "Tom, I'm serious."

"Every time you say my name I melt, please say it endlessly." I laughed again.

"Look, I'm sure you'll make the right choice. But now, you're mine." He said, then slowly approached me and kissed me softly and delicately. Obviously things escalated, and when we came out of the bathroom we did everything to not let others know that we had just had sex.

The concert was about to start and we were all already there. I wore a tight black T-shirt with skinny jeans and amphibians. I would have liked to dress differently, but I was still working. Maddie was also dressed all in black, in fact the luckiest was Vic who could dress as she wanted. Some time passed and the concert was practically over, only one song was missing: Pain Of Love. It wasn't the first time I'd heard it of course, but it was the first time I'd heard Bill sing so expressively, and I knew why. My fault. I felt like shit.

They walked off stage and we were backstage waiting for them. Bill passed me without saying anything, when Tom arrived I complimented him on that solo which was fantastic. "This song was really great." I told him. "It sucks to me." I looked at him terribly. "Anyway, we're going to the disco soon. You're not going to the hotel, right?" he came close to my ear, and whispered to me.

"I don't care about the disco, I just want to fuck you." I skipped a beat.

He pointed his chin at his dressing room. "Not now, Tom." He snorted and rolled his eyes nervously. "Tonight, if you're good." I told him, and a smile appeared on his face. I laughed.

We'd been clubbing for a while, and luckily I'd brought a dress to change into. Tom watched me from a distance the whole time. Then I turned to see the others, and when I laid my eyes back on Tom, he was gone. I searched for him with my eyes throughout the disco, until I saw him in a heated argument with a girl. She was turned, so I only saw her long red ringlets. Tom was continuing to get more and more nervous, and almost didn't push her. I waited a while before approaching them. Then, out of nowhere, they kissed. What the fuck.

I joined them at a fast pace. Tom turned to me, and I slapped him. "Fuck you." I told him before leaving the club and returning to the hotel, crying. As I entered the room, I saw Bill on the couch watching their latest interview. Shit, I thought he was still at the club and I didn't want to show up with all the mascara melted. Unfortunately, he noticed me. He stood up abruptly and came towards me. "What happened? Looks like they punched you." Practically yes, straight to the heart. I was devastated, and when I saw his worried face looking at me for explanations, I slowly leaned in to kiss him.

But he immediately walked away. "Mia, what the fuck are you doing"
"What's the problem?" he looked at me shocked. "What's the problem? Do you think I'm blind?" I didn't understand what he meant. "I know about you and Tom." Shit. Was it that obvious? "I saw this morning at breakfast how you made sweet eyes, and also on the bus that every time he approached your ear and you immediately laughed." I put my hands to my face and then ran a hand through my hair. "I'm sorry Bill. I didn't want you to know..." he began to yell. "Why!"
"Because I still have feelings for you!"

he looked at me, then walked towards me until we were nose to nose. "If you still had feelings for me, you shouldn't have been with Tom." Then he went to his room, slamming the door. He was right.

The next morning, I woke up with a massive headache since the night before, after having that argument with Bill, I had drunk every alcohol in the mini fridge. I realized the time, and in a hurry I got dressed and went down to have breakfast with the others. It was there that I saw her. The redheaded girl Tom had kissed the night before. My eyes widened, and everyone's eyes were suddenly on me, except Bill and Tom who continued to eat. Gustav spoke.

"Hey Mia, this is my sister, Marlene."