Living With Depression

I Don't Even Know Anymore...

Well... my dad is moving out... I try to put on a brave face and push through this but I can't... I have been putting on a brave face for my mom, but on the inside... I'm dying... I knew this was going to happen... he just won't stop drinking... he chose alcohol over his own family... that's just low... right now I wish I could just go die in a hole but... I can't do that... my mom needs me now more than ever... and so does my brother... his real dad wants nothing to do with him... and now my dad is leaving so he won't have him anymore... I knew that this is how it was going to end up... I knew he wasn't going to stop drinking... and I honestly didn't want him here if he was going to keep drinking... is it bad that I knew when he was drunk, just by looking in his eyes? I don't think that's a good thing... but anyways I thought I would update you guys on how things were... well I guess that's it... for now...