I swear I'm an idiot,
I swear I never learn;
I made the same mistake again,
Since apparently shit is what I earned.Imagine crying,
Imagine calling someone to help;
Then you waste someone's time hearing you,
Since they knew how you felt.I was that idiot they called,
One forgot how heartbroken I was;
The other one just didn't fucking care,
I have no idea of why or because.I was there when they needed me,
But that's what I get for being nice;
Of course a guy says one thing by accident,
And now you avoid him like lice.Here's the thing,
I spent too much energy on you;
But a guy simply throws money your way,
I can see why you'd abandon me too.I'm depressed,
With abandonment issues;
But fuck what I feel,
Let me grab a few tissues.I never thought I had a trauma,
But I guess you showed me I do;
So now I have severe depression on one side,
Now abandonment trauma too.I never had that person that I was,
I tried to emotionally stabilize my own self;
Someone to constantly vent to,
I never had that person that can help.But I'm tired of this,
I'm tired of that;
I'm tired of feeling like an object,
Instead of a human in chat.
YOU ARE READING
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