Don't Tell Lucy

9

I wandered through my classes all morning, in a painful daze, wishing to wake up and realize it was just a twisted nightmare and have Dan in my arms. But of course, I'm wide awake, I don't need a pinch to prove it, I already have an dull ache in my chest. I wish someone can actually explain the pain you feel when you miss someone. It made me emotionally, physically, and mentally sick, making me want to throw up whenever I saw him. He tried to talk to me every chance he got, but I would instantly turn away. When I say down at lunch with a sad smile, Chris and Pj instantly noticed something was up. Chris placed a hand on my back, "What's wrong, Phillis?" He said softly while tracing small patterns into my back with his fingertip, as I cried into my Him." I whispered, my voice barely audible. Pj glanced toward the door to the school. "By him, do you mean the one that's coming over to us now?" He said with one of his slender fingers pointing toward the Dan walking towards us. I nodded and buried my head in my hands. Chris pulled his hand away from my back and curled his hands into fists. "I swear to all things mighty, I am going to beat his fucking face in!" Dan was about three feet away from us. Chris and Pj were trying to make his feel bad by patting my shoulder and pulling me into a hug. "Don't worry, he's just a fucking dickhead, like I swear he's worse than Hitler." Chris said really loud, I could feel Pj smile into my shoulder. Chris whispered "One, two, three." They simultaneously looked up, while I sat with my back facing him. Chris scowled and spoke up. "Speak of the Devil, no, the devil wouldn't be that evil." Dan began to speak up but Pj began screaming the words from a Never Shout Never! song "Cheater, Cheater, Best Friend Eater! I was such a fool!" repeatedly. I turned around as Chris stood up then pulled Pj to his feet. They both got into his face. "Why did you hurt our best friend, Howell?" Chris said while poking a finger into his chest. Dan backed up, but Chris and Pj just got closer. Dan looked at me as if I would help him, but I put a disgusted look on my face and turned toward the other two. Chris swung at Dan, his fist connected square into his nose. Pj swooped around and held Dans arms behind him as Chris began to repeatedly punch him in the stomach. Dan tried to pull away, but Pj held him tightly. Pj grabbed Dans cheeks and whispered in his ear. "This may hurt, lover boy, but it sure as hell doesn't hurt as much as our friends heart hurts right now." Chris stopped punching him and stepped away, but Pj held his grip. Chris grabbed ahold of Dans face and turned it toward me. "How could you hurt such an innocent creature? All he did was love you even after you made multiple mistakes, and you ripped out his heart, shattered it, and fed it to your fucking girlfriend." I pulled my eyes from the ground, and gazed up into his brown eyes that were brimmed with tears. With tears running down my face, I just said "Why?" He tried to speak but Chris slammed his hand over Dans mouth. Pj began marching towards the school. "If I ever see you around him or is ever again, next time we won't be so kind." Chris growled. They shoved Dan inside the door and turned back to me. They sat down with a satisfactory smile and say back down. I wiped my tears and gently smiled. "Thanks, I love you guys." Chris wrapped his arms tightly around Pj, "Thank you, but I'm taken and so is he, but call me later." He said with a wink. Pj playfully shoved him off. I didn't dare to say this but I think they were being a little harsh to Dan. Yeah, he was a dickhead, but he didn't deserve to be beat up like that. I still love him, even after what he did. You can't just unlove someone instantly. For some strange reason I thought about Lucy. She probably had it worse than me, but she didn't know that it was worse than she knew. I just had a guy lie to me, she had her long time boyfriend sneak around behind her back, cheat on her, and then dump her. I doubt Dan told her all of that, but I still feel horrible, if I hadn't have moved here she would still have her boyfriend. I realized that must have looked weird, Pj and Chris laughing and carrying on as I stared into the distance. Pj snapped in my face, pulling me out of my trance. Chris patted my back, "Don't worry Phillis, you'll get over his selfish dickhead self." I shook my head, "You guys don't realize, I love him, I can't stop loving him instantly. He took my virginity, he was the first person I really loved, he was my everything." The tears that had began to slow their constant stream down my face suddenly picked up the pace until I was bawling, and the ground where my tears hit was beginning to become mud. Chris pulled me into another hug. "First off, with the whole virginity thing, gross and TMI! Second of all, we need to get you another guy, honey. One that won't be so selfish." I giggled a bit and wiped my eyes onto my jumper sleeve. We all laid back on the ground, just sitting in silence. Suddenly Peej piped up, "we still have half an hour left until we have to go back in, why don't we play some tunes?!" He grabbed Chris's phone out of his back pocket. Chris grabbed at his butt and told him to wait until later and threw a wink at Pj. I laughed a little. I instantly stopped when I heard Nicotine by Panic! At The Disco come on. Pj began singing it at the top of his lungs. "I TASTE YOU ON MY LIPS AND I CANT GET RID OF YOU!SO I SAY DAMN YOUR KISS AND THE AWFUL THINGS YOU DO!YEAH YOU'RE WORSE THAT NICOTINE! NICOTINE! JUST ONE MORE HIT AND THEN WERE THROUGH, CUZ YOU CAN NEVER LOVE ME BACK! CUT EVERY TIE I HAD TO YOU BECAUSE YOUR LOVES A FUCKING DRAG, BUT I NEED IT SO BAD, YOUR WORSE THAN NICOTINE!" He paused it when he noticed I wasn't responding, just staring at the sky and crying. His eyes went wide, "That's not a good song for right now." He changed it and Dance, Dance by Fall Out Boy came on. They pulled me to my feet and we all began dancing frantically, I had a little less enthusiasm than they did, but I was dancing nonetheless. When it ended we all fell to the ground in a heap of laughter. We sat like that for the rest of the period, just talking about everything that came to our heads. When the class ended, they stood up and pulled me up and we walked back to class. We passed Dan once, Pj and Chris glared at him and he just looked down and walked to class, in what looked like a lot of pain.